Sexual Revolution

[Ankh]

I told already the story about the tree branch. What I left out is that as I looked at that branch there was something in it calling to my inner being. Then something arose, like a knowledge that I don't remember, and that knowledge contains the ability of seeing sacred, loving Oneness in all things, like a tree branch, and it sparkles in a way that is impossible to describe. And then there was something that I could do, or be able of. I don't have mental ability of grasping it yet, and maybe I never will, as this knowledge is not grasped by the 3D mind, but if I oversimplify this wave of spiritual orgasm in my 3D mind it might be called as merging/melting with (in this case) tree branch in spirit and mind. The same thing happens sometimes when I look at leaves, trees, sky, soil etc. But who know if I am understanding it... But, though I might not remember it, and though I might distort it in my 3D mind, this part contains something so breathtaking beautiful that there are no words to describe it.

As we all had so much fun derailing three threads at the same time this morning something was with me that whole time. Only later, I realized that. And got sad. I saw visions, and emotions were like waves and winds taking me high and deep. I got very affected by this realisation, and didn't have energy anymore to joke about it. Something was there. Is there. And I don't understand it.

Tonight I managed myself to do Gaia meditation. That something arose again and called to me, asking me to come with it. So I followed. And it was like a magnet in Gaias inner core. So I merged with it and got spiritual orgasm from it. I don't have a clue of what it means. But I think it means something beautiful. (I read somewhere in Quo sessions about anchoring its light into the Earth, but I can't seem to find it now.)

What does this all have to do with sex? Everything! This something is the most intimate contact one can make with one, and so is sex. And yet, physical sex seems so clumsy in some sort of way. It is like flying a jumbojet instead of being a bird. It feels like rough energies bumping into each other, instead of that beautiful beam where one is merging with one. So I started a thread before, called sexual energy transfer, but still, I have difficulties to coalesce this spiritual/mind thing with physical sex. It is like day and night. When I travel with these beaming beautiful merging energies I have problems being in this physical world, as I perceive it as very rough. And I shall not even begin to compare merging on spiritual/mind level with physical sex. Am I wrong in this?