Semantics

[turtledude23]

Dude, what would you say has played the biggest role outside of yourself to influence your own wisdom? I'm talking parents, school, society, location, technology, etc. I want to learn from you. Your presence makes me metaphorically weep for my 19 self.

Weep for yourself? Why? You are who you are now and that's what matters.

When I was younger I daydreamed alot, that gradually turned into thinking alot because of various catalyst, now I'm looking for the balance between the two and emotion. I was always curious and preferred isolation over social contact until very recently, and I had a computer in my room with internet access. I'd read about whatever I was interested in on Wikipedia and because of my participation in the piracy community I could also find alot of pdf versions of books I was interested in. I watched alot of comedies intended for adults when I was young, one show in particular was mainly political satire, that really helped develop my critical thinking skills, as did one song on an Eminem CD I bought which criticized george bush's policies, although these factors also lead to pessimism until I found spirituality. My dad talked about conspiracy theories sometimes and my mom would help me refine my own theories about the world by pointing out their weaknesses, she might be a wanderer. I learned very little about anything from school other than the fact that I dislike my free will being infringed. Spending so much of my life in front of a computer and studying how it works probably influenced my thinking process (A is always a cause of B, etc.) causing an imbalance which I'm well on my way to resolving. Living in a peaceful suburb with alot of trees and animals that is walking distance from a downtown area with a subway, skyscrapers and malls probably influenced my belief that you can have the best of both worlds and that anything you need is accessible. The religion I was raised with taught me to feel guilty about meaningless things, I've rid myself of this belief for the most part. Marijuana also helped.