(05-05-2011, 06:14 PM)ahktu Wrote: The thing I fantasize about, is torturing someone with their permission. Convincing them they enjoy it. Making them beg for more. It's erotic or something, but it disgusts me at the same time. It only ever goes so far in my fantasies. I've fantasized about whipping or beating people (not to mention having those things done to me), even branding them or something like that, but never the really weird, crazy stuff like what I saw online last night. That just makes my stomach turn. I wanted to throw up. I still do.
Balance this by feelings of the erotic side that gives you a pleasure with the picture of when it's not. Both these sides of the torture are real and needs to be balanced. And there is nothing to apologize for!
(05-05-2011, 06:37 PM)ahktu Wrote: I shouldn't have brought any of this up.
Oh yes, you should! If not here, where are you ever going to talk about it? At your job?
