Greetings with love, pain and sadness

[Zygra]

Welcome with love, Zygra. I look forward to your Self story and your contributions.

"Not prepared for this world"? When time allows, I would love to learn more of your perspective on this.

Thank you.

This world is a place of constant conflict. I was tought to avoid problems and defer to grownups. One became sheep as a child for the wolfs to feast on. More like psychic vampires then wolfs. No lesson was ever tought to stand for oneself. To love oneself. To lead oneself. What was tought was to do as one was told. Obedience. That instead of being tought to confront problems one avoids them.

Looking back my fellow humans werent tought tought to respect and honor themselves either. Nor did they take it. They simply couldnt give something that they diddnt have.

I am now aware tough that the best teacher is pain. It is not your friends that teach you to build city walls. It is your enemies lesson that is given. Once one builds a strong self by oneself, then it is stronger then anything that could have been given.

A practical similarity is like being given a bike for the first time as a child. One has never been on a bike before and dont know how it works. Helmet is excluded. Have fun, enjoy. So I hit my head on the lessons of this world and eventually became councious and very angry. I think im addicted to this sh#t.

During my spiritual growth I also started doing many practical and abstract meassures. Mental training, meditation, martial arts, bodybuilding, spiritual shield techniques and research into alternative information including some occult teachings.

Seeing the world as completly mad and that it diddnt make sense I knew that there was some viewpoint that I was missing. I started to pray for truth and meditated long periods for it. Within a few weeks I came over "the Ra material / law of the one". Without reading any of it I already knew that I had in my hand the closest thing to the truth that I could get my hands on. That was back in 2007/08. Ever since then I have often secluded myself to study the material.