Quote:In my case, I would say I lack individual courage to stand up to the onslaughts of the most severe catalysts made available by the brothers and sisters of darkness. I cannot take in all that pain. The ability to inflict pain is one of the greatest tools that the STS have, in case they identity a STO group, individual or situation to target. And of course, some of the carrots are enticing too (money, power, physical beauty, etc). As Ra said, most of the folks of the human race lack honesty in terms of understanding what they really want.
Love is the greatest protector, but from what?
It doesnt matter where you are but what you do about your situation. Where and how do you go from that place ? Attitude is everything. I give no one the right to my desires and my choices. I make misstakes and learn mostly trough self reflection. I gain more through honest self criticism then I normally do through the critique of others. Others tend to be less develouped with an overblown and malign ego.
There is no good reason not to want well for yourself. Power, money, beauty and most other things for that matter. Balance is key. It is important that theese things serve rather then enslave. Things can be used but can also be abused. 95 % STO / STS is unpractical, demands extreme lifestyles and doesnt suit most people. "Be real, be genuine" is what I tell myself and advice most people I meet. You can have a great body and look really good and still be extreamly STO.
I believe that people confuse too much and deny things that they need. From what I read you seem to lack self confidence and courage. Confrontation is best here. Not hoping but planing, being proactive and taking charge of oneself is what leads me to where I want to go. I advise to check out the mentality of champions. The Champion truly is in the mind.