07-24-2009, 11:40 AM
That's possible, Monica, because I don't normally think about negatives too much and I've always had a sort of "God is watching over" type of feeling. There was one time that I had a nightmare that I'm fairly confident was a "greeting", but other than that I don't really pay them any heed.
Funny you should mention that about pot, I actually smoked marijuana recreationally from the time I was about 14 to the time I was about 17, and at that point, for whatever reason, I decided I didn't want to do it anymore. Then, when someone would talk me into doing it again, I would have a pretty negative reaction to it and think "Woah, I don't like this anymore." But then, several years later, just a few months ago, someone got me to do it (and it was some very high quality stuff) and it was almost like a hallucinogenic experience for me, it was not the weak and recreational high I had experienced before, but I felt like new parts of my mind were being experienced with it. That has now continued. While I only do it maybe twice a week, it's not what it was to me when I was younger, now it's more like a sacrament. I only really like to do it alone, because it's when I'm not distracted by social obligations that I can most focus inwardly. It feels like an entire other part of my mind has been activated, like it opens me up to experiencing the unseen flowing into me through my imagination, and hopefully through the use of this substance I can gradually awaken to that part eventually without the plant. But, I also think it's pretty harmless, roughly on par with a glass or two of wine or a bowl of pipe tobacco from time to time.
Funny you should mention that about pot, I actually smoked marijuana recreationally from the time I was about 14 to the time I was about 17, and at that point, for whatever reason, I decided I didn't want to do it anymore. Then, when someone would talk me into doing it again, I would have a pretty negative reaction to it and think "Woah, I don't like this anymore." But then, several years later, just a few months ago, someone got me to do it (and it was some very high quality stuff) and it was almost like a hallucinogenic experience for me, it was not the weak and recreational high I had experienced before, but I felt like new parts of my mind were being experienced with it. That has now continued. While I only do it maybe twice a week, it's not what it was to me when I was younger, now it's more like a sacrament. I only really like to do it alone, because it's when I'm not distracted by social obligations that I can most focus inwardly. It feels like an entire other part of my mind has been activated, like it opens me up to experiencing the unseen flowing into me through my imagination, and hopefully through the use of this substance I can gradually awaken to that part eventually without the plant. But, I also think it's pretty harmless, roughly on par with a glass or two of wine or a bowl of pipe tobacco from time to time.