What is happening to me?

[SomaticDreams]

I have began meditating every night now sending love and light to the world and those who need it and just being a peace with myself, for the past week I have felt very tired, confused, loss of memory problems and have had body aches and what seem like flu like symptoms... Its just an overwhelming tiredness that I could not explain... I posted this in the Archangel Michael channelling thread but I wanted to turn these experiences I am having into a thread because I want other people perspectives, "Archangel Michael" says its part of "ascension" or "initiation" as Ra calls it, I also explains have had wierd emotional ups and downs while meditating, just the other night I went from extreme peace and happiness to full on crying about the negativity in the world and the chaos and mass losses of innocent life in wars and violence, it was uncontrollable sadness which then went back to extreme peace before ending meditation..

Has anyone else had or are having these sort of experiences?

Love and Light

We are One

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Also I have this weird feeling like everything feels different... I am beginning to see everything more and more as the illusion that it is... And in meditation I all of a sudden opened my eyes and began looking around my room and said in my mind "what a funny little illusion I have chosen to put myself in"... I felt different in a way while looking around it felt foreign to me in a way, like it wasn't my real home.. Very weird feeling..

Much love and light to you Zack,

This roller coaster of emotions is a reflection of your conception of self. When you look at the world, it reflects yourself back to you- meaning that the symbols and sign systems you create and use in your life reflect in your thinking, and therefore your experience of the world.

If I may, I would suggest some meditation upon these feelings. One at a time of course; pick a particular emotion you wish to explore. Then meditate on only one part of it (I break it down into physical sensation, emotional sensation, and mental sensations, or thoughts).

For example, if you are choosing the emotion of sadness, then focus first on the physical sensation. Explore how your body feels in this vibration. Is your stomach tight, or your shoulders painful? Do your temples feel like they have more pressure on them? etc. Just 'scan' your body with awareness, bringing to your awareness all the physical feelings that arise. Know that they are not permanent, they come and go as do all things. Explore each aspect of each emotion as you deem fit.

This type of meditation will help you find the sources of your emotions. If they seem to be coming from "somewhere" then they hold root in a particular definition or way you choose to define (and therefore experience) reality.

Perhaps this is your higher self telling you that you focused too much upon the change happening in the world, and that there is always peace to affirm in, and that is the eternal, infinite nature of yourself, or more precisely, your awareness (Ra stated that in time/space awareness/consciousness is a phenomena that occurs there, and in space/time we are in these physical bodies).

I hope this helps. These meditations might take a while or not...either way, give them the due time they deserve. If you are taking a 'long time' on exploring them, you are not being truthful to yourself. Do not be afraid. Explore all things, it will come to you when you are willing to face it.

I've had to recall many difficult times in my life to assimilate, and bring in these experiences into my awareness. Indeed, it's the most difficult times to recall that have the most effect/affect upon us. This meditation is easy, but you must believe this deeply- that you can do this, and you will be able to do it with ease. If you think it is difficult, then you will experience difficulty.

With this in mind, I hope you love and light in your journey. Know that many are sending their love and light to you, everyday, at this moment.

Peace, love and light to you my brother. I hope my experience may illuminate your path so you can find the next step.

Adonai.