Catalyst and randomness

[Kiko]

@Turtle Yes, I very much dig. It is daunting. If you have an idea of what lies down that path of thought you might call it daring. It's a pretty big pill to swallow. There is no choice for a red or blue pill, just one big freakn pill.

From my view, if kiko doesn't want to swallow what I have to say about it, all the better! It will make the big pill an even more wonderful surprise.

Turtle and CJ; thank you for your thoughts. I do not want to seem dim (I am dim at times by default!) I do see your points, and last replied in the early morning hours after a pretty much unbelievably 'random' event.

As if to show me something, via some insignificant single events, I found myself out drinking with a guy I do not really know but who lives locally, surrounded by five drunk, fun, very beautiful dancing girls half my age. I am not joking. Completely out of the blue; one minute at home, the next chatting to gorgeous 20+ year olds and thinking, "How the hell did this happen?"

It offered all kinds of catalyst, as you might imagine, and has left me with cause for much thought regarding how I am living my life. All I have wanted recently is peace and quiet, yet I seem to be being offered what most men past fifty years of age only dream of. I find it very strange, and yes, it feels random and happened in a seemingly random manner.

I certainly do know illusion from oneness, and still do not have an answer to determinism v. randomness, even within the illusion. Is it possible to have true randomness within an illusion? As you say, is not randomness just part of the illusion? And even more strange, why when I am a man with morals and a sense of duty to other self in the form of (possibly) vulnerable/immature young women, am I being offered all too much by many at random times? (This is not the first time this kind of event has occurred).

This life is so strange as to be ridiculous.