08-11-2011, 07:18 AM
Well... I keep having these dreams every now and then. Except that..it is a bit more complicated than that.
In real life, I was (and to a certain extent, I still am) a very..lazy person. Not the "would not do anything" kind, but the one that keeps pushing further the things I need to do up till a point when I have no more time to do it, and I fail the exams. I am now trying university for the 3rd time, and while my teachers love me, and I love them, and I love the lessons when I am in, I fail again and again for being late for class, having some minor health issues when it would be time to go to school, catching colds when I could not miss more classes for that semester, etc.
Now, in parallel to this, I keep having a dream (every half year or so, once, but I remember them) where I have to take the final exams in high school again for some dumb reason. And then I am in class with my old classmates, except that everyone has aged already, and we all have jobs, but still..we are back. And the class is ALWAYS something that I have neglected when I was in high school. History, or biology, or even Deutsch (when I was focusing on english instead as a foreign language, yet we had both languages taught to us).
But a few month ago, I had the dream where I was already out of the university (this has not happened in real life yet, but I am slowly crawling to that point again...) and I knew even in the dream that there are no more chances.
Waking up, I think there is two things to learn from all this.
1) It really might be the higher self's way of pointing out the things we neglected because we though they are unimportant, when in fact they might be important just because we chose to neglect them!
2) It is okay to fail school. That is for me of course. But it is not okay to say that it is the goal I pursue and THEN failing it. If one sets a goal, he should work hard to accomplish it.
And that point two in my life has been a good lesson that I start to learn now: whether I am graduating or not from programming in university, I just love programming. And I have a mission - and I can do that the best by putting seeds of peace and hints about the Law of One and being in harmony with others into games that I want to make (indie games). Therefore, regardless of whether I do get the diploma or not, I should work hard on creating what I want to create, because that can be one way of indirectly helping others to realize their potential (and to provide entertainment also, which is non-neglectable).
These dreams really are powerful, though. I always feel so bad, dumb and weak waking up from them -.-
In real life, I was (and to a certain extent, I still am) a very..lazy person. Not the "would not do anything" kind, but the one that keeps pushing further the things I need to do up till a point when I have no more time to do it, and I fail the exams. I am now trying university for the 3rd time, and while my teachers love me, and I love them, and I love the lessons when I am in, I fail again and again for being late for class, having some minor health issues when it would be time to go to school, catching colds when I could not miss more classes for that semester, etc.
Now, in parallel to this, I keep having a dream (every half year or so, once, but I remember them) where I have to take the final exams in high school again for some dumb reason. And then I am in class with my old classmates, except that everyone has aged already, and we all have jobs, but still..we are back. And the class is ALWAYS something that I have neglected when I was in high school. History, or biology, or even Deutsch (when I was focusing on english instead as a foreign language, yet we had both languages taught to us).
But a few month ago, I had the dream where I was already out of the university (this has not happened in real life yet, but I am slowly crawling to that point again...) and I knew even in the dream that there are no more chances.
Waking up, I think there is two things to learn from all this.
1) It really might be the higher self's way of pointing out the things we neglected because we though they are unimportant, when in fact they might be important just because we chose to neglect them!
2) It is okay to fail school. That is for me of course. But it is not okay to say that it is the goal I pursue and THEN failing it. If one sets a goal, he should work hard to accomplish it.
And that point two in my life has been a good lesson that I start to learn now: whether I am graduating or not from programming in university, I just love programming. And I have a mission - and I can do that the best by putting seeds of peace and hints about the Law of One and being in harmony with others into games that I want to make (indie games). Therefore, regardless of whether I do get the diploma or not, I should work hard on creating what I want to create, because that can be one way of indirectly helping others to realize their potential (and to provide entertainment also, which is non-neglectable).
These dreams really are powerful, though. I always feel so bad, dumb and weak waking up from them -.-