09-11-2011, 07:36 AM
Once I had a dream where I was paired with a girl, and I wasn't even lesbian. It was like a contract that I had to agree upon. Someone "above my head" decided that, and I had to do that in order to be of service. As I was not lesbian, I was not attracted to that girl. I even found her repulsive, and especially her body, as I realized that I had to give her physical pleasure, according to that contract. What I realized pondering that dream, is that it was a symbolic picture of my own relationship to my current body/incarnation. That girl was physically disabled and was sitting in a wheelchair; and I had to serve her and felt imprisoned by the fact that I had been paired with her. At that time that is how I felt regarding being incarnated. I felt imprisoned by my own body, which I also felt aversion to. So maybe, you are deeply in love with yourself, and you want to melt with that love very badly, but feel that it is not ok? You perhaps don't want that love to be "injured" by others, if you lay it open? And that other girl that was trashing the girl that you loved, are perhaps those aspects of yourself which are constantly trying to "hurt" that love?
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