Symbiote

[Ali Quadir]

i think it is risky to allow another to reside with you because of our lack of sophistication or discernment. We are each a spark of the creator with a unique vibration. i believe our journey here on earth is a chance to express that and that this is an important task: to be you.

But I am me Who else would I be? I don't believe the creator can miss his goals by anything I choose to do. He created me, he created this. This mortal does not have a merest fraction of the power required to mess up Gods plans.

I admit it wasn't smart. But I did not get hurt and I learned that situations that at first sight are intimidating can be transmuted and mastered. The world is a savage garden. It needs a gardener and gardeners usually end up working with weeds. I also did not abandon my ideal of compassion. Some people experienced it's presence. I had a friend who sensed it and would banish it for me. I did not like that prospect at all. The presence was worrying, but banishing it felt like a stab to my gut.

At any rate I believe "our choices made in our pursuit of our ideal self" defines "who we are" much more than an inherent quality. I am as unique as a drop in the ocean Just one of billions. I am who I am because of where I came from, but I choose to define myself in where I'm going.

The presence of this other hasn't been clear to me for a few years now. I think he's had a chance to catch his composure find his bearings and move on. The whole thing reminds me much more of a stray cat who initially was dirty, wary and desperate. Like me in that period incidentally. But later on just loosened up and actually gave me some insights in how people can be selfish through desperation. He was still no angel but hey.. A little care goes a long way.

And yeah you're right, it wasn't a smart move.