11-13-2009, 06:19 AM
I recognise the wisdom in what you say, peregrinus. I am here to to make such mistakes, and to learn from them. I, like all, am "doing my best". Like many things, this is partially an experiment.
For the sake of argument, you might consider this akin to an auction. The "price" begins at zero. I hope to provide the information about myself that others might find valuable, and this is an attempt to do so; but I realize that it's hard to vote at an auction if you don't know what the "goods" are... essentially it boils down to this; is there anything that someone would like to know about me without me volunteering? Do others find this form of exchange awkward? For now I would like to see what anyone might want to know, if anything.
To get things started, I suppose it is necessary that I start with something...
As I have grown up, I have been considered smart, creative, and gifted by my teachers, and to some extent, my peers. I was picked on by some kids, but ultimately all those experiences have given me benefits in understanding others. You could say I have been gradually "awakening" all of my life so far, and I am still very much in the process. About four to five years ago, I emerged from a biblical Christian belief system, into the "larger world" of truths within truths. I retain the faith that I developed while following Christianity, that all is ultimately as it should be, and that God and/or the Universe will not absolutely destroy or imprison me for honestly seeking Truth, even if that truth not be of any one belief system. It is this faith that gave me the courage to seek in the first place. So perhaps around that time, or leading up to it, was my "awakening", if you define awakening as "when one becomes aware of one's awareness". Some seem to have believed me to be somewhat wise, but I tread carefully upon that premise, feeling that I must be careful about how much value I place on my own words as compared to another's words. I have had no metaphysical experiences so powerful or obvious that they "prooved" to me the existence of such things, but I have chosen to believe because it feels true, and I have always felt an inner resonance with the concept of "Magic". I have recently turned eighteen, and thus am at a somewhat pivotal point in my life. Free from the imposed structure of school, I now can choose my path, and I am considering this very closely. I desire to be prepared for whatever "honor/duties" I may have agreed to upon entering this life, and so I desire to awaken as much as possible. For this purpose, I am working to wake up and shake off the grogginess.
For the sake of argument, you might consider this akin to an auction. The "price" begins at zero. I hope to provide the information about myself that others might find valuable, and this is an attempt to do so; but I realize that it's hard to vote at an auction if you don't know what the "goods" are... essentially it boils down to this; is there anything that someone would like to know about me without me volunteering? Do others find this form of exchange awkward? For now I would like to see what anyone might want to know, if anything.
To get things started, I suppose it is necessary that I start with something...
As I have grown up, I have been considered smart, creative, and gifted by my teachers, and to some extent, my peers. I was picked on by some kids, but ultimately all those experiences have given me benefits in understanding others. You could say I have been gradually "awakening" all of my life so far, and I am still very much in the process. About four to five years ago, I emerged from a biblical Christian belief system, into the "larger world" of truths within truths. I retain the faith that I developed while following Christianity, that all is ultimately as it should be, and that God and/or the Universe will not absolutely destroy or imprison me for honestly seeking Truth, even if that truth not be of any one belief system. It is this faith that gave me the courage to seek in the first place. So perhaps around that time, or leading up to it, was my "awakening", if you define awakening as "when one becomes aware of one's awareness". Some seem to have believed me to be somewhat wise, but I tread carefully upon that premise, feeling that I must be careful about how much value I place on my own words as compared to another's words. I have had no metaphysical experiences so powerful or obvious that they "prooved" to me the existence of such things, but I have chosen to believe because it feels true, and I have always felt an inner resonance with the concept of "Magic". I have recently turned eighteen, and thus am at a somewhat pivotal point in my life. Free from the imposed structure of school, I now can choose my path, and I am considering this very closely. I desire to be prepared for whatever "honor/duties" I may have agreed to upon entering this life, and so I desire to awaken as much as possible. For this purpose, I am working to wake up and shake off the grogginess.
ayadew Wrote:Can you attempt to understand that no understanding can come from this density?I can, and am trying as I type this... I am tempted to respond with "Understanding comes from all, as all is ultimately One," but I think that might be an avoidance tactic in this case (whether the statement is true or not). I can attempt to understand that which I can comprehend, and I'm not sure I entirely comprehend the intended meaning of your question.