Old Enemies and Best Friends

[Ankh]

This is such a great place!! Not only do I learn stuff here, and get my own opinions, and understandings analyzed. I also learn/get so many great ideas here, AND (like the rest wasn't enough) there are people here who have the exact same thoughts sometimes, which I can carry for myself, thinking that I am alone with this stuff and have no one to turn to.

I was really upset at work about a colleague who seems (from my perspective) to use really negative thinking and negative humor (sarcasm that always gets a laugh at someone else's expense) to "control" other staff members who want to be "cool" (gads...it's like high school).

I've been thinking about this Logo and it's polarity in the concept of it being a high school too. There is this cool gang, hanging around, smoking and trying to separate themselves from others, because they see themselves as higher beings. There are few of them. The majority is the nerd gang, which is the rest. It's us, people. We might as well admit it. We are the nerds of this Logo, sending people love and light.

Then I realized that he had just as much right to "offer" negative polarity as I had to "offer" positive polarity...and suddenly I had a moment of love for them all. I realized that by worrying about the other people's choices and thinking about how to "make sure" they didn't go that way, that I was actually infringing on their free will---EWWW! When I "got it" I felt a huge surge of love and peace. (not that I haven't slipped back now and again, but at least I now know how I WANT to feel! )

Thank you for offering these thoughts. It's been some time now when I experienced this, but it has been coloring me since then. This is what happened: my body was sleeping, but I was conscious and awake in my mind. I was about to offer Gaia love and light, by using my hands. When I raised my arms two entities of negative polarity approached me, and one of them grabbed one of my arms. They looked me straight into my eyes. When I did not react, but was about to continue, they let me understand by thought that they exist in this world too, and by sending it love and light, I actually hurt them. I could feel their feelings, and I completely understood their being and thoughts in that moment, as they shared it with me. Love and light hurt them as much as pain and suffer hurt us. Since then, I have been carrying this within me, and that has been acting like a stumbling block for me, in for instance Gaia meditations. But your words truly helped me in this!! Because I realized reading your post, that I have the same right to offer positive polarity, as they have the right to offer their polarity. Thank you!