The Three Functions of a Wanderer (why did we come here?)

[Ankh]

so don't stress. You're probably doing everything that you need to do already.

Thanks plenum. I do stress to the point that I actually can feel physical pain in my body because of that. I want to be able to offer my outmost in *each* given moment. But I have such high expectations of myself, that only thinking about it gets me weary. Also, I stress about that the understandings and then implementation/manifestation of these understandings take too long time. I also get impatient with myself that it doesn't go forth faster. I do get thoughts like: "Why the heck did I choose all these difficulties in the beginning of my incarnation, because they still cause me problems, and I can't still get rid of them. Wasn't it just so selfish?"

Really, all I want to do is to get rid off *all* of my issues, so that I can serve the Infinite One and others, in *peace* and love.

Another post, that of Tenet, striked me on so many levels. But in regards to this particular subject, I want to re-quote him/Q'uo here:

I don't know how this is exactly happening, but people on this forum keep asking questions about things I have just read in the Aaron/Q'uo Dialogues. It is quite uncanny. Anyway, here are some more relevant quotes.

The Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues, Session 25
24 Sep 94

Now, the wanderer is also a convert in that the wanderer did not have to come to this party. The wanderer chose to come here, so that entity who is a wanderer has outsized, larger-than-life feelings that she came here to serve, that he must find the service, whether the scope and direction of this service is in finding the Creator in other people or finding the intimacy of family with the self and the Creator. These desires will be exaggerated beyond that which is normal for those who “have to be at this party, have to pass this test—now.” The wanderer, indeed, is in a precarious situation until he can lay down his armor, his differences, his pains; and grievances that bind her to her body, her situation, with ribbons of “should” and “must” which tie us in knots.