2006.05.07 On Disease and Healing

[Jerome]

Thanks for posting, this is very interesting and I'd like to understand further.

I think my default is or was disease. I needed life saving emergency surgery on my pyloric sphincter at 2 1/2 weeks. I've had plenty of digestive complications in the thirty-two years since - Crohn's disease, bowel surgery, kidney stones, anemia...

I can somewhat grasp this as a plan, the expedient catalyst. I can see how this pain has spurred my seeking (I do not begrudge the experience). I can understand somewhat how fear leads to disease. But the origin of my original digestive disease, does this mean that I had a fear as I came in or is this a fear from a previous incarnation? Is my spirit afraid of something or is it like inertia from a past life? Am I aware of the blockages and the nature of the disease in between incarnations or am I fearful in these times? Or did I know I would be fearful on this plane?

Please forum, I know I'm not the only one born busted up here. What's the scoop?