are you stuck on something at the moment?

[godwide_void]

Hmm... I guess the only thing I'm "stuck" at presently would be the proper manner of integrating my ever-increasing understanding of all of this now, very specifically at this point in my path I'm trying to refine the sense of identity I hold. I no longer view myself as the temporary form I possess now. For quite some time now it has been a matter of disintegration and transfiguration into absolute awareness of "myself" as being but one of the infinite eyes of Creator. The challenge is in retaining the clarity that I am still subjected to this illusion yet am becoming increasingly capable of operating within it as the Infinite One whose capabilities have been vastly limited.

What sometimes obstructs my understanding and emulation of this is when I retain the notion that "reality is a reflection of my mind" and things along those lines. I'd feel like a megalomaniacal solipsistic jackass to go about viewing everything and everyone around me as a figment of my imagination when in actuality I approach this all with deeply humble acquiescence and humility.

However, the more and more I understand that who I am is the "I Am" which is present in all things and not this ephemeral form, the more I comprehend that the "self" which creates the reality around us, is not referring to us, but the self which is Creator, the Brahman, the All. The form my comprehension is currently taking however is not one of intellectual conceptualizing. The majority of the work I have been doing has been in attempting to feel this truth and become it as opposed to simply being aware of it or comprehending it.

Significant progress is being made with every passing moment. It is baffling me at how many new realizations present themselves with every passing day. Before my spiritual seeking, with every passing year I'd look back and reflect and wonder "Damn, I really didn't know who I was, did I?" Now, every week I find myself looking back at myself the previous week and realizing "Wow. I'm STILL awakening and know much, much, much less than I thought I did!" regardless of how far along I have come in terms of my perceived/alleged understanding.

My approach/disposition remains completely Socratic. I do not in any capacity view myself as being at any sort of plateau of understanding and knowledge. I do not view myself as an adept, or a teacher, or a guru, or a master, or any of that. Regardless of how far I've come along I still view myself as a novice to these matters, and I have a feeling that even when I find myself at the highest level of 6D, I will still regard myself as a novice student. The only thing I know, is that I know nothing.

I cannot ever fully express the true extent of my gratitude to this forum. I am constantly thankful to have found myself in a place where I am surrounded by very, very enlightened individuals, and due to the understanding and awareness held by many here I pretty much regard any and all discussions held here as a huge theologue or divine dialectic. "The entity who seeks the One Creator is with infinite intelligence". This is EXTREMELY apparent when one observes the ever increasing understanding depicted in every new post made here by everyone every day. Clicking "View's Today's Posts", for me, has as much value and propensity for furthering my 'enlightenment' as does diving into any esoteric text. I think if someone decided to organize and compile every post made here into an archive it would be the absolute most comprehensive and esoteric text to have ever sprung forth from this world. We may even give our good friends Ra, Q'uo, and Thoth a 'run for their money' as they say.

I guess I'm not so much as 'stuck' as I am still working on synthesizing, refining, and applying all I've learned to every minute facet of my existence here (but, that's pretty much what we're all doing anyways!)

Ah... Guess I sort of went off on a tangent there.