reasons for entities other than the creator and the Law of One

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I can totally understand the Creator being all of us, figuring things out. I myself often have tried different paths in life before I embraced positive energy and love.

But that begs the question...why would the Creator want to discover itself? If it's discovering itself, why is this octave setup up such that totally polarized STO or totally polarized STS make it to the higher levels of existence? I don't doubt that this may well be the case (it's actual a thesis put forward in other areas, such as the science fiction show Babylon 5 when they ask the ancient one why create the shadows and vorlon, something about the universe trying to understand itself).

There is something missing in the puzzle for me. If we're all the Creator, and the Creator put himself in many different paths/entities to discover himself, why in this octave is the duality light versus dark, and why is the light the only way to ascend to the highest density? And why do we say the Creator is all love and light if its discovering its light and its darkness?

Or perhaps the Creator is discovering itself about other things, and just the duality of light versus dark helps draw other realizations out? (light and darkness certainly seems to do that to me, and to other human beings, at some level) But if that's the case why does advancement to higher densities prerequisite on polarization?

Perhaps the answer is that the Creator set up this duality, while being light and love, setup this duality to examine not only light and love that it possess with a veil, but also the depths of darkness it's capable of? That would make sense. I think that would mirror my life. Growing up, I always had an inner voice, that told me to be loving and caring, but having the veil and a few early life interactions with other entities made me bitter, and ignore that voice, and pursue the path of STS (or at least try it out)...and it continually felt wrong...and even I got past my bitterness, I still tried out a variety of STS paths based on the fact that empirically it seemed that people following such a path were happy on the outside. Only to discover that for myself, it did not bring happiness at all, and that I was much happy not worry about power, superiority, in career or socially but just spreading love and positivity. Perhaps there's a clue in my own spiritual journey. Because know I am much more confident that I am a being of light and love and STO, having tried to force myself into a path of STS and feeling it was just wrong, to my very core, despite rationalizations that allowed me to justify these actions.

I know stand a person much more confident in my STO, my light and love, because I've tried the STS and path of darkness and it did not feel right. I could rationalize it in the mind, but in my heart it did not feel right. Hmmm..

Thank you for all of your thoughts thus far