Disinterested.

[thefool]

I completely understand. It is so hard and weary. I have had my phases of being done with all this. It feels so stupid sometimes. and everything is so hard like typing letter by letter on this key board. Like working so hard to grow food, cook food and then eat and digest it so we can get small amount of nourishment until the next meal. like walking or struggling against gravity to go someplace. I agree completely. At one point I wanted to just leave but sent back. Even now I need so much time alone with myself.

Now I realize that we are here for something special. To experience 'limitation'. And limited we are. And experience we are having. Sometimes you need a contrast to generate vividness. You need a Blackboard to show the White chalk marks. If it is all white then you would not appreciate the markings. I try to remember that we have the 'Golden Ticket'. While there are so many souls waiting to get in to these exciting and adventures times. We made it and I have all the intention to enjoy it and make the best use of it. It is just like going to the 'theme park' and after standing in line for a few hours to ride the scariest and most dangerous roller coaster. The ride might be scary at times and I might even throw up later on but that does not stop me from having fun, does it