More Positive but Less Harvestable:
My interpretation of Ra's words on Patton:
His incarnation believed in many things necessary for service to others, including recognizing universal love.
However, his belief in lack of forgiveness was strengthened, and while ultimately his overall positivity increased - that is, got closer to STO of 51%, his strong incarnative belief that some are not deserving of forgiveness developed in him a karma that will be a roadblock to surpassing 51%. Thus, at the same time, he got closer in percentage, but acquired a strong block that will need to be undone in order to be harvestable.
Contrast with the man who is lost, discovers universal love, and then move toward STO of 51%, but while he doesn't understand forgiveness he has not actively rejected forgiveness, he has both gained positive polarity and not developed any strong incarnative experiences that would preventing him learning about forgiveness in the future.
Another more mathematical example would be someone who was 10% STO, and then made a soul decision to do exactly 45% STO, but only 45% because of certain beliefs that would prevent it from going over 45% (maybe due to strong beliefs that forgiveness is wrong, or strong beliefs that evil and ugliness should be killed off by force)...
EDIT: The Patton example brings home a personal stumbling block. I believe my incarnative lesson is self-love. I was always born a loving and caring person, but I lacked self-love due to certain parental experiences...but after conquering that, and forgiving my parents, and completely loving them (recently, past year)...I still notice that catalyst have been given that cause me to question my own self-love/self-esteem/view of self (orange ray blockage
)...thus while I want to dedicate my life to STO, I need to be able to balance my own centers and my view of myself in order to surpass 51% and become harvestable.
It's weird, my rationale mind recognizes, especially since from my STS path type years, I empirically am an awesome person when I would engage in competitive activities (career, interactions with women, intelligence), in many aspects...and I love helping others when my mental state is good...yet I still suffer from serious self-doubt on occasion...haha the 3D material world would probably say I needed meds.
That being said, I haven't really suffered depression in the past few years, so things are definitely better
My interpretation of Ra's words on Patton:
His incarnation believed in many things necessary for service to others, including recognizing universal love.
However, his belief in lack of forgiveness was strengthened, and while ultimately his overall positivity increased - that is, got closer to STO of 51%, his strong incarnative belief that some are not deserving of forgiveness developed in him a karma that will be a roadblock to surpassing 51%. Thus, at the same time, he got closer in percentage, but acquired a strong block that will need to be undone in order to be harvestable.
Contrast with the man who is lost, discovers universal love, and then move toward STO of 51%, but while he doesn't understand forgiveness he has not actively rejected forgiveness, he has both gained positive polarity and not developed any strong incarnative experiences that would preventing him learning about forgiveness in the future.
Another more mathematical example would be someone who was 10% STO, and then made a soul decision to do exactly 45% STO, but only 45% because of certain beliefs that would prevent it from going over 45% (maybe due to strong beliefs that forgiveness is wrong, or strong beliefs that evil and ugliness should be killed off by force)...
EDIT: The Patton example brings home a personal stumbling block. I believe my incarnative lesson is self-love. I was always born a loving and caring person, but I lacked self-love due to certain parental experiences...but after conquering that, and forgiving my parents, and completely loving them (recently, past year)...I still notice that catalyst have been given that cause me to question my own self-love/self-esteem/view of self (orange ray blockage
)...thus while I want to dedicate my life to STO, I need to be able to balance my own centers and my view of myself in order to surpass 51% and become harvestable.It's weird, my rationale mind recognizes, especially since from my STS path type years, I empirically am an awesome person when I would engage in competitive activities (career, interactions with women, intelligence), in many aspects...and I love helping others when my mental state is good...yet I still suffer from serious self-doubt on occasion...haha the 3D material world would probably say I needed meds.
That being said, I haven't really suffered depression in the past few years, so things are definitely better
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