Hi Lynn,
I also do not share your circumstances in specific, but it rings very close to home in vibration with my own, so to speak "battle" with what I believe is an overly energetic sex drive (orange ray activation?). I am also constantly wondering about the larger nature of this, and I am still undecided. On the one hand, I believe it is very important to express who you are most truthfully as often as possible because to do anything less is a disservice to yourself and ultimately a disservice to others (by not expressing honesty). On the other hand, the fact that you (and I) have gotten to the point with our respective circumstances that we can look upon them and evaluate it as possibly harmful may be indication enough that some sort of action should take place. ("If you think there is a problem, there is a problem" sort of thinking). I guess one place to start in this evaluation is asking the question "Who is harmed?" You, someone else, nobody?
At the present time I have consciously worked with myself over the course of some months and come to a place where I have consciously taken steps to not express my sexuality at all opportunities but instead only some. (not to go in to great detail, I just wanted to add that these expressions are private and not involving otherselves) Sexual desire being what it is, I have met these steps with mixed results and mixed success. Certainly with mixed feelings... Possibly because I am not 100% certain that restriction of the self is appropriate in the first place. As is stated by another spiritual guru, "Action and Belief are one in the same. You will act on your beliefs, and your actions will reflect your beliefs". I am still very much in the trenches with this catalyst. I cannot aid you but indirectly, and offer you my full understanding, support and of course love.
By the way, I also took some pause at reading the Ra quote in book 2. Personally, I feel this information was aimed more towards such individuals who do not simply role play dominance/submission, but actually play it out in real life scenarios by committing rape, or molesting children, or other such activities. As Dr. Ruth said decades ago, any activity two loving people chose to explore in the privacy of their own home is in no way shape or form wrong [from a societal perspective].
I also do not share your circumstances in specific, but it rings very close to home in vibration with my own, so to speak "battle" with what I believe is an overly energetic sex drive (orange ray activation?). I am also constantly wondering about the larger nature of this, and I am still undecided. On the one hand, I believe it is very important to express who you are most truthfully as often as possible because to do anything less is a disservice to yourself and ultimately a disservice to others (by not expressing honesty). On the other hand, the fact that you (and I) have gotten to the point with our respective circumstances that we can look upon them and evaluate it as possibly harmful may be indication enough that some sort of action should take place. ("If you think there is a problem, there is a problem" sort of thinking). I guess one place to start in this evaluation is asking the question "Who is harmed?" You, someone else, nobody?
At the present time I have consciously worked with myself over the course of some months and come to a place where I have consciously taken steps to not express my sexuality at all opportunities but instead only some. (not to go in to great detail, I just wanted to add that these expressions are private and not involving otherselves) Sexual desire being what it is, I have met these steps with mixed results and mixed success. Certainly with mixed feelings... Possibly because I am not 100% certain that restriction of the self is appropriate in the first place. As is stated by another spiritual guru, "Action and Belief are one in the same. You will act on your beliefs, and your actions will reflect your beliefs". I am still very much in the trenches with this catalyst. I cannot aid you but indirectly, and offer you my full understanding, support and of course love.
By the way, I also took some pause at reading the Ra quote in book 2. Personally, I feel this information was aimed more towards such individuals who do not simply role play dominance/submission, but actually play it out in real life scenarios by committing rape, or molesting children, or other such activities. As Dr. Ruth said decades ago, any activity two loving people chose to explore in the privacy of their own home is in no way shape or form wrong [from a societal perspective].