12-23-2009, 12:52 AM
At least you've acknowledged that something is there that needs to be dealt with! That is the huge first step, becoming aware of "it". I don't really have any specific experience in this area, so I can't give you any direct or situational advice. I can observe that subs tend to enter the trancelike state or altered state of consciousness when submitting, so you aren't alone here. It seems like you feel guilt about having this "quirk" about you. The only advice I can offer you is that in order to proceed peacefully, you have to make peace with all of yourself first. Find your whole self, then love and accept it all... It will change if necessary, in part or in whole.