As Aaron said, I think the most important step is acceptance.
You are beautiful in all your aspects. You don't seem to be harming anybody, and it sounds like this isn't a crutch for you, but rather one of the many ways that you express who you are. Who knows if this is an indicator of orange ray blockage or imbalance? And if it is, wouldn't the best way to deal with it be to acknowledge it, give it space, and embrace it? As an active seeker of the one, you surely spend plenty of time in the higher chakras.... maybe the lower ones need to express themselves as well. Also consider this: could the act of submission be an acknowlegement of the power of surrender? Forgiveness, surrender, acceptance, etc. seem to be central to Ra's message.
I'm a musician, so I best understand things through musical analogy. I can't stick to one type of music. I was trained as a classical guitarist. Sometimes I play grinding crunchy metal. Other days I play powerful groovy riffs. I often dabble in etherial washy clouds of harmonious spacy sound. Today I practiced some Bach. These different kinds of music all evoke different colors and feelings for me, correspending to different energetic points in my body. What I'm saying is, I don't do all of this at once. While it is certainly possible to create music that hits all the chakras in a balanced way, that's not always what I need. Some days my music may sound really red-ray.. some days blue-ray. I don't know if I play music to express myself or to heal myself... I suspect it's both. Some people listen to "Pure moods" and feels that it heals them. Lots of people go do death metal shows and punch eachother's brains out in mosh pits, not because they are violent, but because it heals them.
When you CHOOSE to be dominated and hurt, you are engaging in a creative act. It's a way for you to express what you need to express. And perhaps it's also a release valve. Perhaps it's what you need to do in order to heal and balance yourself in that moment. Only you can know whether or not it serves you.
we're all just riding up and down on the multicolored breath of the cosmos. We fluctuate from day to day. But my bet is if you were to take away time completely and look at any being- what you would see would be a beautiful radiant rainbow- perfectly in balance and harmony, but also perfectly unique. We're already balanced, we're just exploring our nuances.
It was helpful for me to respond to your post in order to hash through my thoughts about energy and what chakra balancing actually means, so feel free to take or leave anything I've written.
Peace and love to you all!
Phil
You are beautiful in all your aspects. You don't seem to be harming anybody, and it sounds like this isn't a crutch for you, but rather one of the many ways that you express who you are. Who knows if this is an indicator of orange ray blockage or imbalance? And if it is, wouldn't the best way to deal with it be to acknowledge it, give it space, and embrace it? As an active seeker of the one, you surely spend plenty of time in the higher chakras.... maybe the lower ones need to express themselves as well. Also consider this: could the act of submission be an acknowlegement of the power of surrender? Forgiveness, surrender, acceptance, etc. seem to be central to Ra's message.
I'm a musician, so I best understand things through musical analogy. I can't stick to one type of music. I was trained as a classical guitarist. Sometimes I play grinding crunchy metal. Other days I play powerful groovy riffs. I often dabble in etherial washy clouds of harmonious spacy sound. Today I practiced some Bach. These different kinds of music all evoke different colors and feelings for me, correspending to different energetic points in my body. What I'm saying is, I don't do all of this at once. While it is certainly possible to create music that hits all the chakras in a balanced way, that's not always what I need. Some days my music may sound really red-ray.. some days blue-ray. I don't know if I play music to express myself or to heal myself... I suspect it's both. Some people listen to "Pure moods" and feels that it heals them. Lots of people go do death metal shows and punch eachother's brains out in mosh pits, not because they are violent, but because it heals them.
When you CHOOSE to be dominated and hurt, you are engaging in a creative act. It's a way for you to express what you need to express. And perhaps it's also a release valve. Perhaps it's what you need to do in order to heal and balance yourself in that moment. Only you can know whether or not it serves you.
we're all just riding up and down on the multicolored breath of the cosmos. We fluctuate from day to day. But my bet is if you were to take away time completely and look at any being- what you would see would be a beautiful radiant rainbow- perfectly in balance and harmony, but also perfectly unique. We're already balanced, we're just exploring our nuances.
It was helpful for me to respond to your post in order to hash through my thoughts about energy and what chakra balancing actually means, so feel free to take or leave anything I've written.
Peace and love to you all!
Phil