12-25-2009, 01:26 AM
Hi ahktu
I can understand what you are going through. Although I can't relate directly to your submissive desires, I can relate to your feelings of being unsure about your desires and what they mean. I have my own desires (they are harmless to others and myself as far as I can tell) that I am trying to better understand. Although I accepted my desires around 8 years ago, I am still trying to understand them. Are they a sign that something is wrong? Should I be spending time and energy trying to "fix" these desires? Is worrying about them an appropriate response? Should I just let myself be myself?
All of these questions seem to be what you are going through as well. So far, I have decided that I will continue with my spiritual growth as if my desires are not a problem (I'm not even sure they are "fixable", or needing to be "fixed" for that matter). This seems to me to be the most balanced option at this point in my life. If anything crops up in the process, I will be more than happy to deal with it. This is what my suggestion is for you. Do not over worry yourself with your desires. Be yourself, and try to be happy with who you are. Continue with your development and if you have any inspiration regarding these desires that you think is important, examine it. Just remember, you are perfect and you are loved.
I can understand what you are going through. Although I can't relate directly to your submissive desires, I can relate to your feelings of being unsure about your desires and what they mean. I have my own desires (they are harmless to others and myself as far as I can tell) that I am trying to better understand. Although I accepted my desires around 8 years ago, I am still trying to understand them. Are they a sign that something is wrong? Should I be spending time and energy trying to "fix" these desires? Is worrying about them an appropriate response? Should I just let myself be myself?
All of these questions seem to be what you are going through as well. So far, I have decided that I will continue with my spiritual growth as if my desires are not a problem (I'm not even sure they are "fixable", or needing to be "fixed" for that matter). This seems to me to be the most balanced option at this point in my life. If anything crops up in the process, I will be more than happy to deal with it. This is what my suggestion is for you. Do not over worry yourself with your desires. Be yourself, and try to be happy with who you are. Continue with your development and if you have any inspiration regarding these desires that you think is important, examine it. Just remember, you are perfect and you are loved.