Problems with focus and meditation.

[Observer]

I was not aware of the self judgement bit.
It is my passion though, I have been wanting to achieve true meditative state for quite some time now.
Even as a child.
I am just experiencing extreme blockages right now that I am trying to work out.

In that case, something must be playing on your mind. Something stopping you from being in the moment.

Graduation is coming up and I am also moving to North Carolina next month.. But wouldn't meditation only help the process more? It wouldn't make sense for my higher to restrict it from me.

Considering graduation is a failsafe method to keep you blocked from the moment. Meditation is not intended as a method to achieve a long term goal, it's a method in which to be in the eternal now.

What makes you think that not meditating is restricting you? How you conduct yourself and your thoughts (STO/STS) during your waking hours is far, far more polarising than meditation.

Remember that your entire day can be a meditation. Be in the moment. That's all meditation is, whether you sit quietly, go for a walk or listen to music.

I have a hunch of what is causing my blockages. I am going to try and work it out.