Origins, reptiles, and other strange ponderings

[Monica]

I was reluctant to talk about that here, but seeing someone else bring it up makes it feel a little less weird in my head.

It doesn't seem weird at all to me, in light of what we know about the polarities from Ra.

I have also wondered if all my being stuck on the topics of pain and enslavement stem from unconscious memories of my past. I’m even starting to wonder if my desire to be the submissive in sexual relationships is an attempt to balance whatever I may have done in the past.

That all fits!

All I can say is that when I “saw the light” it felt like a trillion pounds had been lifted off of my shoulders. The sudden beauty of everything was astonishing.

Wonderful!!

Still, I the one thing that makes me doubt this theory is, since as far back as I can remember, I have possessed an overwhelming sense of compassion.

Maybe this isn't the first lifetime in which you've been an STO aspirant. Maybe you've been working on changing polarity for awhile, and have made a lot of progress.

Whatever the case, I am who I am now, and I am choosing to serve others.

Sounds like you're doing great!