Anyone else feel the huge energy influx these last few days?

[Sagittarius]

I feel like it's an upward spiral, the intense darkness, then elation, then dark again, but not as dark as before, then elation slightly higher than previously. It's a constant drain. The dark times seem to sap every bit of energy left, and when you feel happy and joyfull you just know you're going to feel terrible in a couple of days. But when you feel terrible you feel like it's going to be like that forever.

There is an intense instreaming of energy at the moment. I hear constant loud rushing sounds in my ears, and can't sleep. I slept 2hrs last night. Several people in my office complained of not being able to sleep and were up at 2am playing video games or reading books.

I think it's doing something to the third eye because at night when the lights are off I see swirling indigo patterns in the dark. Very similar to the Norway spiral. When I close my eyes it disappears, I only see them when my eyes are open. Like DMT activation or similar.

I just drove into the countryside at 12 last night and drove around for 4 hours thinking, can't sleep at all. Buying lots of weed tonight so should help me sleep. Took 5 strong ass sleeping pills and they did nothing.

I would say the awake wanderers are the ones to fall first, to be honest I'am at the bottom, I can't bring myself to react to anything, I just don't care anymore. The anger and sorrow from the weekend has just turned into complete emptiness with a few rays of hope to keep me going.

I want to be glad that others will start to fall in the storm but I don't even care I just want out of this prison, my pride is gone, my shame is gone, my guilt is gone and my control is gone, I'am faceless and nothing just a ghost waiting to pass on. I'am just waiting now, I feel the end is near, nearer then 21/12 at least for me. I'am quitting my job, not paying my fines, nothing. I refuse to keep feeding this machine.

This is the point I needed to reach, release awaits me. There is no winning or losing this game, it is a game of nothing. The only thing I have left is the hope of never feeling this again.