Anyone else feel the huge energy influx these last few days?

[AnthroHeart]

Exactly. Not really a challenge after the fall though, once you go through that faith in-tact, I can't think of anything that would make me fearful or nervous, f*** it I'am already dead.

This is how I feel sometimes. I often get thoughts of dying though, usually in the same gruesome manner. But I know I'm alive since I have to work. Your words bring up some questions I have to myself. Am I alive or dead? Well, the heat here is pretty hot, and my a/c is barely keeping up. But at least I have a pet dog that shows me love at times. I wish I could just know. I remember dying, worn out and broken. But here I am as if nothing happened.
With all this I'd rather be on the other side. But if I were, I'd probably wish I were back here on this side. I definitely don't feel the unconditional love that those who go through Near-Death experiences go through. Even though I remember dying, I didn't feel the overwhelming bliss. It was very hot, a lot of heat the whole experience.

I think my frustration with this life is that I just want to get on with it already. Funny thing, I'm not suicidal, but just feel the other side is better.

I remember during part of the experience I felt like a child. I knew for sure then that I had died. Then it went back and forth between living and dead, and I thought it would be really cruel to still be living after all those experiences I had of such love. I did feel love now that I think about it. It wasn't overpowering though. But it was more fascinating and intriguing.

I think I'm slowly coming out of my slump. having to see psychiatrists and therapists and taking meds now isn't really helping my mood and outlook on life. It's a somewhat dark time. And it's a slow cycle.