Anyone else feel the huge energy influx these last few days?

[Sagittarius]

Exactly. Not really a challenge after the fall though, once you go through that faith in-tact, I can't think of anything that would make me fearful or nervous, f*** it I'am already dead.

This is how I feel sometimes. I often get thoughts of dying though, usually in the same gruesome manner. But I know I'm alive since I have to work. Your words bring up some questions I have to myself. Am I alive or dead? Well, the heat here is pretty hot, and my a/c is barely keeping up. But at least I have a pet dog that shows me love at times. I wish I could just know. I remember dying, worn out and broken. But here I am as if nothing happened.
With all this I'd rather be on the other side. But if I were, I'd probably wish I were back here on this side. I definitely don't feel the unconditional love that those who go through Near-Death experiences go through. Even though I remember dying, I didn't feel the overwhelming bliss. It was very hot, a lot of heat the whole experience.

I think my frustration with this life is that I just want to get on with it already. Funny thing, I'm not suicidal, but just feel the other side is better.

I remember during part of the experience I felt like a child. I knew for sure then that I had died. Then it went back and forth between living and dead, and I thought it would be really cruel to still be living after all those experiences I had of such love. I did feel love now that I think about it. It wasn't overpowering though. But it was more fascinating and intriguing.

I think I'm slowly coming out of my slump. having to see psychiatrists and therapists and taking meds now isn't really helping my mood and outlook on life. It's a somewhat dark time. And it's a slow cycle.

It is hard to explain what I mean by me being dead. I don't mean it in an un-alive sense I mean more it more in the metaphorical sense, the part of me that was holding me back has died, all of the useless s*** I have held onto which was only strengthening the darkness is gone, all that is left is the desire for unconditional love totally and completely.

I will not take anything else, I have no fear to just ignore or walk away from people or to let my truth out. The negativity is dieing and any attempt to fight the negativity with positivity will only strengthen the negative, as they are one in the same. Instead I will be silent and ignore it. I simply have no space for it in my brain anymore, I reject it completely and utterly.

I don't even have to try though, something clicked in my brain like the previous times my thought patterns have changed and boom fear is meaningless to me.

What is there to fear when you are a ghost,