Making Sense of Obstacles (Catalyst)

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Moderator note: These first 2 posts were moved from another thread so that the spin-off discussion can continue.

Goodmorning monica, steve and all of you

This is interesting. I know i have astrological transits in my personal horoscope reflecting confusion among other things, f.i. i should be dcareful in nay businessdelaings and try to keep all communication as clear as possible since the tendency for misunderstandings ais strong in my personal cycle. On top of that mercury is retrograde reflecting the tendency for misundrstandings and delays incommunication on a collective level.

From the perspective of the Law of One how would you guys percieve the problems i have with the instructions for making this donation? Do i have a subconscious resistance to making it? Or am i using this as a means of contact since i feel cut off from many of my recent friends who do not even call to see how i am doing after my surgery.

I have stated my point and put boundaries for myself that i think are healthy and it seems they can not take any criticism. Now it seems like i am the one who must reconnect otherwise the relationship will fade away. I am always the first to forgive and continue as nothing happened but perhaps this is a new stage in my development, the challenge of not falling back into co-dependency.

Any thoughts anyone?

I am reading Carlas Living the Law of One and i'm worried about my own health, emotional, mental and physical

Wow, minus the surgery part I have almost the same situation going. Why do I have to save the relationships all of the time? It actually, coupled with my other catalysts, made me think about suicide. Here is the messed up part:
I go to my higher self for a lot of advice. So I asked him/her if I should do it, and the answer i recieved was "Not yet". Not a "not yet" as in "you will live to a ripe old age Jacob" it was a "you can do it, but you have some stuff to do first". This really doesnt surprise me much. Well I cant actually do it because it goes against far to many morals of mine, so does anyone feel like playing "whack-a-mole" with a 5d wanderer? I meen, I have always been sure that I wasnt going to live to be an old age, I am a smoker, and there has always been this underlying feeling that I have a few small jobs to do and then I am finished. You know, just not built to last. And thats kool, but maybe he/she could have just not answered. I really don't want to splurge and live like I am diying, maybe nothing will happen for years. I know the whole stigma against fear and I am right there, but this kinda scares me. On a scale from 1-10, ten being panic, one being ,well, not panic, I am about a 4, though usually a big fat 0. For the record: Yes, I am sure it was my higher self, and No, I did not distort the answer.

Way to make me feel better Mr. Higherself..........

Btw thank you all for always providing a thread for me to let my problems out. I could never put it to words in my own thread, nor do I have a single person other than the ones here to talk to about it.

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