07-17-2012, 12:05 PM
(07-17-2012, 10:45 AM)βαθμιαίος Wrote:(07-17-2012, 06:03 AM)vilst3r Wrote: Recently this year, knowing that it's 2012 that it's our final year here
How do you know that?
He kinda tipped at it here:
Quote: Knowing the fact that the ideas put forward about 2012, resonate with me so much that it's definately true, has made me feeling really tired and lazy .
I feel like I can speak to it because I am one of those who, as zen just said, likes to get "focused on anticipation" (guilty as charged). The culprit is that damn resonating feeling; a small, quiet excitement that ignites in your gut when you tap into some of this stuff.
It's funny. I'll tell myself often "you're just looking into things and wanting these things to happen, and so you see the signs where you want to", and sometimes it is true and I can see the forest from the trees. However, other times, that voice insides just shuts me down, like "fine, don't believe, i don't care. you'll see..."
Trust me - it feels weird to be bluntly shot down by your inner self. It's disorientating because you don't know which side to listen to; your intuition or your pragmatism. The problem with choosing pragmatism is that it's a slippery slope...
For myself as of late, my daughter has kept me "on track". I have very little time to get all riled up and excited about 'maybes'. I'm waiting for the real thing, and what I have come to realize is that it doesn't matter how long it takes. I'm in a space right now that needs to be explored in some way; that is my goal. I'll take the level up when I get it.