Advice please...

[Ankh]

Over the weekend I repeated "I love myself unconditionally" at every waking moment to attempt to neutralise the negative judgement thrown at me.

Sometimes, it is easier to love, forgive or whatever it might be others instead of self. Whomever this person is that results in catalyst of where I stop loving myself, or when I can't forgive myself, I try to love or forgive this person instead. It works much better for me. And when I am genuinely feeling this love for another self, or forgiving another self, if I am becoming consciously aware of it and how it affects me too, I start loving myself, or how I start forgiving myself for completely other things than those I am forgiving another self for. Cause aren't we all one? It is interesting to become consciously aware of these things in the physical manifestation though.

I agree with others here who already said that compassion doesn't mean to shutting down your blue ray. If someone is an ass and acts as an ass, one can work on perfecting the balance between the compassion/love for that person (by consciously trying to love this person no matter what) and wisdom (by using the blue ray and standing up for yourself).