08-06-2012, 05:22 PM
I just wanted to share this experience I had today. Many of you know I have a condition that puts me in fairly excruciating pain on a frequent basis.
Today was one of those bad days, and I was literally thrashing and moaning in pain. It's amazing all the things that start running through your head in the face of torture- how clear your thoughts can become.
I often try to think of positive things during this time, calling out to my angels and visualizing healing light, etc. However, today I suddenly felt the urge to drop everything- all attempts at rationalization and resistance- and simply reach out and touch the Creator. I stood before the I AM as I was, wretched and sick, and instead of my usual pleas for the pain to be taken away, I surrendered myself and simply allowed myself to feel in spite of the pain.
The Creator said to me "Daughter, I am here, too." And though the pain didn't vanish, it was met with an equal pulse of love, and I realized that I was at peace in spite of the pain, and that there is absolutely nothing on this earth that can take my joy away from me. Peace is not a state of body or mind. It is a force unto its own that always surrounds us, simply waiting to be accepted. The most gut wrenching agony was instantly transformed into a moment of beauty that I am thankful for, simply because I allowed myself to trust in beauty in spite of pain.
Remember, even in your darkest hour and your deepest pain, I am there, too.
Today was one of those bad days, and I was literally thrashing and moaning in pain. It's amazing all the things that start running through your head in the face of torture- how clear your thoughts can become.
I often try to think of positive things during this time, calling out to my angels and visualizing healing light, etc. However, today I suddenly felt the urge to drop everything- all attempts at rationalization and resistance- and simply reach out and touch the Creator. I stood before the I AM as I was, wretched and sick, and instead of my usual pleas for the pain to be taken away, I surrendered myself and simply allowed myself to feel in spite of the pain.
The Creator said to me "Daughter, I am here, too." And though the pain didn't vanish, it was met with an equal pulse of love, and I realized that I was at peace in spite of the pain, and that there is absolutely nothing on this earth that can take my joy away from me. Peace is not a state of body or mind. It is a force unto its own that always surrounds us, simply waiting to be accepted. The most gut wrenching agony was instantly transformed into a moment of beauty that I am thankful for, simply because I allowed myself to trust in beauty in spite of pain.
Remember, even in your darkest hour and your deepest pain, I am there, too.
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