08-26-2012, 05:29 PM
The quotes in this post are from Shin'Ar.
I think there is something to this. Frustration and pent-up anger are feelings I deal with constantly. Part of my love lesson has been to allow them to surface without fear that I'm suddenly "going negative." I've discovered that for me, honesty about what I really think and feel has to trump concerns about polarity or Harvest. That's a lesson in self-love, trusting oneself and not thinking one is bad for having such balancing to do.
As for trouble expressing love, I'm not so sure that the removal of personally-focused love, which I'm beginning to think is reactive and addictive, has to imply an overall lovelessness.
My spiritual author of choice, Jed McKenna, touched on this in one of his books. He said that in order to awaken, you have to "feel love dying inside you." It blew my mind to read that, and I would have been confused if he hadn't written earlier that pretty much the one feeling he has left he called Agape, which was all-embracing evenhanded acceptance of everything and the ability to stay present with anything. So the "love" that he said would die was of the reactive, attached variety.
Compare this to Ra's statement in LOO that a truly balanced entity is devoid of emotional reactivity but is nonetheless responsive when occasions to serve others arise. Jed clearly saw such an opportunity when he decided to write his books, which to me were very helpful, despite being "loveless."
For now, I intend to balance a lifetime of bias toward personal love with an intentional withdrawal from it until such time as the effects of that withdrawal can be integrated and understood, at which point re-balancing may be needed.
I can't believe you're a Ford man, Shin'Ar.
Quote:Now is the time to perfect and master patience, that one virtue that most humans have great difficulty with.
The very fact that you have trouble expressing love is that your patience is being tried and you are in a state of frustration. It may be a calm apathetic frustration but it is still frustration which impedes your desire to express the love that resides within you.
I think there is something to this. Frustration and pent-up anger are feelings I deal with constantly. Part of my love lesson has been to allow them to surface without fear that I'm suddenly "going negative." I've discovered that for me, honesty about what I really think and feel has to trump concerns about polarity or Harvest. That's a lesson in self-love, trusting oneself and not thinking one is bad for having such balancing to do.
As for trouble expressing love, I'm not so sure that the removal of personally-focused love, which I'm beginning to think is reactive and addictive, has to imply an overall lovelessness.
My spiritual author of choice, Jed McKenna, touched on this in one of his books. He said that in order to awaken, you have to "feel love dying inside you." It blew my mind to read that, and I would have been confused if he hadn't written earlier that pretty much the one feeling he has left he called Agape, which was all-embracing evenhanded acceptance of everything and the ability to stay present with anything. So the "love" that he said would die was of the reactive, attached variety.
Compare this to Ra's statement in LOO that a truly balanced entity is devoid of emotional reactivity but is nonetheless responsive when occasions to serve others arise. Jed clearly saw such an opportunity when he decided to write his books, which to me were very helpful, despite being "loveless."
For now, I intend to balance a lifetime of bias toward personal love with an intentional withdrawal from it until such time as the effects of that withdrawal can be integrated and understood, at which point re-balancing may be needed.
Quote:If you are a Ford man and driving in a Chevrolet, it will not matter how much you would like to realize the smooth Ford ride, you are going to feel the bumps because you are now in a Chevy.
I can't believe you're a Ford man, Shin'Ar.
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