Spiritual Apathy

[Shin'Ar]

I feel a gravity in my heart and 3rd eye, and am working on keeping them in balance.
Thank you for your insight into not seeking self-gratification.
There were other areas of my life where I was, and it would leave me feeling a little empty afterwards.
At least with balancing my chakras, I can feel like I'm surrounded by Creator's love.

I assume self-gratification has to do with desire. I remember Ra saying not to overcome any desire. So this makes me a little confused on how to proceed.

Self gratification is any action which denies the true aspect of self as The One, and nurtures the illusion that our temporary identity is our only self.

It is the gratification of the temporary, in ignorance of the permanent reality.

To balance the illusion/temporary with the reality/permanent we must strive to realize the temporary, and live accordingly, instead of existing as though this temporary self is some sort of infinite identity that takes priority over all else.

Like the hamster on the wheel running and getting nowhere, we can exist in our cage of delusion, or we can understand that the cycle has a purpose, and it is not meant to be a means of getting our temporary identity anywhere at all. To actually get anywhere we must leave that cycle. We must realize that the person we think we are, based upon our brain's effort to interpret its environment, is NOT our true identity.

Unless of course you enjoy running on the hamster wheel.

In that case, Shin'Ar will be Shin'Ar in a thousand years from now, and was Shin'Ar a thousand years ago. This identity which I now realize will be my hamster wheel, until I die, and that life force which was Shin'Ar in this lifetime begins a new identity in another life form.

Shin'Ar's delusion dies with him. That identity becomes memory.

The new incarnation will also be challenged with discerning the reality of this hamster wheel, until such time as my true life force evolves in understanding to the point where it no longer requires the learning and understanding of delusional self identity, and actually becomes its true self, void of temporary identity.

Know Thyself!

You are not that which you think you are.