09-03-2012, 12:07 PM
Cyan wrote:
I feel your pain, Cyan. I think often about the things I regret doing. This is a long slog. You have to keep your head up and take one step at a time. Screw not praying. I'll say one for your continued positive momentum, energy, and well-being.
So I contradict myself. As I said... I'm still feeling this out.
Quote:I have, as a result of my work, come upon the fact that even if i believed i was doing the right thing, or being honest, or trying to be a good person. I have lied tremendously as well as hurt people i love tremendously.
That has made me turn within and ponder my thoughts, emotions and reactions. I believe that for the most part, i am experiencing something similar, thought it isnt apathy as such, it is more like shock at the amount of crap that i have done despite my best efforts to the contrary. And the good opportunity this period of quietness in my life (thought it should be all but) i have withdrawn and started to contemplate what i do. So, i sympathize with you DMC, but i feel it is not apathy, it is lack of momentum considering the massive scale of the challenge ahead in terms of growth.
I feel your pain, Cyan. I think often about the things I regret doing. This is a long slog. You have to keep your head up and take one step at a time. Screw not praying. I'll say one for your continued positive momentum, energy, and well-being.
So I contradict myself. As I said... I'm still feeling this out.