Sacramental Nature of All Things

[DJL]

Thank you everyone for all the positive feedback and interest in my story. That's a great meme Parsons. I will continue to develop this "Hunter S. Thompson-ish" memoir within the next week or so. Right now I am focused on securing employment to start the next chapter of my life so that is taking precedence but while that is my priority I promise that finishing this story is my passion.

To be honest I’ve been hesitant because I didn't know what to expect in the way of feedback from the community but more and more everyday do I feel a kinship here. Not something I am used too. It’s exhausting when, in the world, what I find is persons whose cups "runneth over” with dogmatic ideals that leave no room for growth or expansion, only greater obedience even at the expense of morality. That’s the extent of my rant on the matter. An exposure of resentment that no doubt reflects an aspect I saw within myself.

Today my thirst to serve purpose, quest to seek knowledge and desire to be humble keep my cup half empty so that I will have that very room for growth and I remind myself that it is the ambition of my ego to deny my fears and be accepted by others that keeps my cup half fool. I should keep that on a Post-it note on my bathroom mirror as an affirmation of balance, “Half Empty/Half Fool”. My human dilemma yes but progress away from “my cup runneth over” in this context.

I now feel comfortable enough here to ask for assistance in understanding to a greater depth what are some of the community’s interpretations of what I experienced in my “NDE”.

1) The “angel” or “light being”?
2) The “demon” or “reptilian”?
3) The “vortex” or “gateway”?
4) The “old man”?
5) Why my iris was bright purple?

I would like for my comprehension to be more accurate so I can better wrap my head around it. I began to research a few days ago on the thought that perhaps I could find a picture of the “demon” I saw and put a name to the face. I found nothing under “demons” but found a plethora of pictures that all so closely mirrored each other and matched what I saw under the search “draconian/reptilian”. It was stated they are “manipulative and deceptive” and they “feed” off of energy. OK, that sounds legit.

For the rest I’m still a skeptic. “Dracos” made the “greys”, “war over earth”, “illuminati”, “NWO”,…. At that point I felt a glaze go over my mind. I didn’t know if this was reliable intel so I dropped back into the foxhole and made my way to You Tube to watch videos of kids belting out songs in auditions of network talent shows that I will admit brought tears to my eyes a few times.

So there it is. Any answer BETWEEN “I’m a total liar and made the whole thing up” AND “grandiose inter dimensional conspiracy theories” is where my mind can function for now. Thank you in advance for the help. I’m grateful to be meeting you all.