I've been wanting to write this post for a while, but I guess that I have a reason now for doing it, because something happened to me 24 hours ago. I remembered my mission! I don't know why it happened right now, all of the sudden, in the midst of all kind of different and intensive catalysts, and busy life, and I'm not even sure that I have been seeking properly or intensively because of everything else that happens, but it did...
Anyway, yesterday morning when I came home from work I lit a certain incense, and there came a specific scent from it, and there it was - memory of my mission.
When it happened, I almost started to laugh, because it feels like this memory has always been there, right in front of me, with me, closer to me than my own heartbeat.
I've had an intellectual understanding of what my mission is, or what I would like it to be in this incarnation, but I haven't had this deep recollection or memory of what it is actually.
Perhaps it sounds dramatic, but what got me thinking about it in the first place, which was some time ago, was namely this quote:
"The entity could also have, when the hour came, walked another path. Its incarnation would then have been prolonged but the path for which it incarnated somewhat confused."
This quote is about Jesus. That Jesus *could have* chosen another way, that is to not to be crucified, but since it has chosen this particular life plan or mission for itself, *its path would have been somewhat confused* if it would have walked any other way...
I was very much affected by these words, that its path would have been confused. What does it mean in regards to my own incarnation, I thought? Well, my conclusion is that if one is not walking the path which one has pre-incarnatively chosen for itself, then this path is confused, to say at least.
So, I've been wondering and seeking this memory of my own mission, but not in a very intensive way because of different catalysts. One catalyst has been due to unworthiness issues. I felt that whatever mission I have chosen for myself, I am not worthy of this mission. And God forbid - what if I am so far away from this mission that I am failing both myself, my beloved ones, and the Creator, how could I then live with myself? Another catalyst was - what if this memory would not match what I have had in mind intellectually for myself for a while now? And there were many other catalysts, which lead to uncertainity to both of the seeking/asking and receiving this memory, if it would ever come. But nevertheless, I was thinking about it for quite some time now, and thinking about this Jesus quote, and at the same time observing how confused my path is, and understanding that I still don't remember the reason to my incarnation fully...
And so I remembered it yesterday morning, or about 24 hours ago!
What I can say about this is that suddenly, when now looking back, almost everything about my life makes sense to me now, from the early childhood and until this point! It has unfolded as it did because there was/is a plan. Aaaand... I am not that confused anymore. At least not for now. There is a certain clarity about things now.
But I do have a lot of work to do though! So, there has been many, many moments during these 24 hours when confusion was present, BUT it feels like it is not that same kind of confusion as it used to be before this recollection. Because the confusion which enters my life experience now, is still clear in some way when I am bringing forth this memory of what I planned, and then I am able to look at the present moment which brought the confusion and understand that this present moment is nothing but the means to get to this goal.
And I also want to mention that it doesn't matter anymore if I die tomorrow, or by some other reasons never reach this goal. Because I remember, and that is all which is important. There is a clear air around my path now, as to knowing where to go - and, all else is up to the intelligent infinity. The outcome of this plan never mattered in the first place.
So, I have just been taking deep breathes, relaxing, and looking at the situations which have been bringing these confusions, knowing or understanding that there will be many, many more before this goal *may* be reached. And this is how it feels for now at least! I understand that there might be much more difficult situations in the future, and that maybe I will forget at times, but I sure hope not to! Not now that I remember!
Most of us here, if not all, are of senior vibration, and maybe even Wanderers. What it means is that not only did we plan our lessons, we probably even planned something specific that we were going to offer to this world, while incarnated, like Ra said here:
"You may, at this time, note that as with any entities, each Wanderer has its unique abilities, biases, and specialties so that from each portion of each density represented among the Wanderers comes an array of pre-incarnative talents which then may be expressed upon this plane which you now experience so that each Wanderer, in offering itself before incarnation, has some special service to offer in addition to the doubling effect of planetary love and light and the basic function of serving as beacon or shepherd.
Thus there are those of fifth density whose abilities to express wisdom are great. There are fourth- and sixth-density Wanderers whose ability to serve as, shall we say, passive radiators or broadcasters of love and love/light are immense. There are many others whose talents brought into this density are quite varied.
Thus Wanderers have three basic functions once the forgetting is penetrated, the first two being basic, the tertiary one being unique to that particular mind/body/spirit complex."
But we all know this quote!
There is much more that can be said about this, but I will leave it here for now. What I wanted to share is that it is absolutely worth seeking this memory. And when those doubts etc arise within the mind complex which are in the way of this seeking/asking, then maybe just looking at these doubts or just melting with them, or trying to understand them, may be enough... They are not that bad after all, I noticed! And may be they will lead one to the understanding of the self as in - know yourself, accept yourself, become the Creator. But each path is different, and I'm just sharing mine.
Either way, for me - this was the most important memory of all!
Anyway, yesterday morning when I came home from work I lit a certain incense, and there came a specific scent from it, and there it was - memory of my mission.
When it happened, I almost started to laugh, because it feels like this memory has always been there, right in front of me, with me, closer to me than my own heartbeat.
I've had an intellectual understanding of what my mission is, or what I would like it to be in this incarnation, but I haven't had this deep recollection or memory of what it is actually.
Perhaps it sounds dramatic, but what got me thinking about it in the first place, which was some time ago, was namely this quote:
"The entity could also have, when the hour came, walked another path. Its incarnation would then have been prolonged but the path for which it incarnated somewhat confused."
This quote is about Jesus. That Jesus *could have* chosen another way, that is to not to be crucified, but since it has chosen this particular life plan or mission for itself, *its path would have been somewhat confused* if it would have walked any other way...
I was very much affected by these words, that its path would have been confused. What does it mean in regards to my own incarnation, I thought? Well, my conclusion is that if one is not walking the path which one has pre-incarnatively chosen for itself, then this path is confused, to say at least.
So, I've been wondering and seeking this memory of my own mission, but not in a very intensive way because of different catalysts. One catalyst has been due to unworthiness issues. I felt that whatever mission I have chosen for myself, I am not worthy of this mission. And God forbid - what if I am so far away from this mission that I am failing both myself, my beloved ones, and the Creator, how could I then live with myself? Another catalyst was - what if this memory would not match what I have had in mind intellectually for myself for a while now? And there were many other catalysts, which lead to uncertainity to both of the seeking/asking and receiving this memory, if it would ever come. But nevertheless, I was thinking about it for quite some time now, and thinking about this Jesus quote, and at the same time observing how confused my path is, and understanding that I still don't remember the reason to my incarnation fully...
And so I remembered it yesterday morning, or about 24 hours ago!
What I can say about this is that suddenly, when now looking back, almost everything about my life makes sense to me now, from the early childhood and until this point! It has unfolded as it did because there was/is a plan. Aaaand... I am not that confused anymore. At least not for now. There is a certain clarity about things now.
But I do have a lot of work to do though! So, there has been many, many moments during these 24 hours when confusion was present, BUT it feels like it is not that same kind of confusion as it used to be before this recollection. Because the confusion which enters my life experience now, is still clear in some way when I am bringing forth this memory of what I planned, and then I am able to look at the present moment which brought the confusion and understand that this present moment is nothing but the means to get to this goal.
And I also want to mention that it doesn't matter anymore if I die tomorrow, or by some other reasons never reach this goal. Because I remember, and that is all which is important. There is a clear air around my path now, as to knowing where to go - and, all else is up to the intelligent infinity. The outcome of this plan never mattered in the first place.
So, I have just been taking deep breathes, relaxing, and looking at the situations which have been bringing these confusions, knowing or understanding that there will be many, many more before this goal *may* be reached. And this is how it feels for now at least! I understand that there might be much more difficult situations in the future, and that maybe I will forget at times, but I sure hope not to! Not now that I remember!
Most of us here, if not all, are of senior vibration, and maybe even Wanderers. What it means is that not only did we plan our lessons, we probably even planned something specific that we were going to offer to this world, while incarnated, like Ra said here:
"You may, at this time, note that as with any entities, each Wanderer has its unique abilities, biases, and specialties so that from each portion of each density represented among the Wanderers comes an array of pre-incarnative talents which then may be expressed upon this plane which you now experience so that each Wanderer, in offering itself before incarnation, has some special service to offer in addition to the doubling effect of planetary love and light and the basic function of serving as beacon or shepherd.
Thus there are those of fifth density whose abilities to express wisdom are great. There are fourth- and sixth-density Wanderers whose ability to serve as, shall we say, passive radiators or broadcasters of love and love/light are immense. There are many others whose talents brought into this density are quite varied.
Thus Wanderers have three basic functions once the forgetting is penetrated, the first two being basic, the tertiary one being unique to that particular mind/body/spirit complex."
But we all know this quote!
There is much more that can be said about this, but I will leave it here for now. What I wanted to share is that it is absolutely worth seeking this memory. And when those doubts etc arise within the mind complex which are in the way of this seeking/asking, then maybe just looking at these doubts or just melting with them, or trying to understand them, may be enough... They are not that bad after all, I noticed! And may be they will lead one to the understanding of the self as in - know yourself, accept yourself, become the Creator. But each path is different, and I'm just sharing mine.
Either way, for me - this was the most important memory of all!
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I've been drawn more and more towards areas of Earth healing and preservation, while addressing people's basic needs in alignment with those things at the moment. I figure it's one way to remain grounded and not get ahead of ourselves. The way your memory came back to you was pretty cool.
