12-05-2014, 11:14 AM
I write this for connection with others who share a similar story...
I do not claim I am a Wanderer, as I do not have access to information from previous lives and any such claims are meaningless- for we are here to love/serve. However, since 3 or 4 years old, I have been very different from my peers. I have been loud, loving, and full of more energy than I or anyone else knew what to do with. This was not diagnosed as any "ADD" disorder as my grades were exceptional in advanced classes and I could hold my attention as long as I needed to complete my creative endeavors.
As my time in public school continued, my life became more strange. I knew love so very well. I don't mean being polite, I mean having compassion and understanding for each individual. I also had more "energy" (what I now believe is a consequence of my extreme polarity). I was too often ridiculed by my peers or even teachers for having an open heart and being so voice full in my thoughts.
As time progressed, I didn't have a hard time making friends, but rather finding friends that were dear to me. I could help shine with many others, but I always felt incomplete in being normal. The others did not see things as I did, they did not experience the feelings of joy that I did, they did not see the obvious love we are called to give. For that was fine, but I did not directly know that I was to be teaching my peers and teachers.
Now I am 24 years-old and I am realized again, that I am far from normal. The way I interpret this world is vastly different than a 'normal human being'. I used to joke that whatever caused "Depression" in people, than I must have the opposite. Since my public school days, I've completed 2 degrees, started 2 businesses, and met more friends than I can recall. I have infinite creative love to give and the joy I experience as a result is nothing short of orgasmic.
I have also had many entheogenic experiences in which I have traveled to Venus, learned my purpose here is to help usher all other (selves) towards a light, and been broken many times to the point of true humility. (All before encountering the Ra Material)
My energies go far beyond businesses and school, I have grown/learned greatly in my own spiritual understanding, which has brought me to the Law of One Material. I quickly became obsessed with this material, as for me, it was as close as I can recall to hearing the Creator speak in English. I would listen to the audio on the way to/from work and diligently study the texts at night, often meditating on the lessons from Ra.
Now, I find myself humbled and grateful for my life nearly constantly. I am fully aware our material universe is an illusion and that I am one with everything. When I speak with others, I am speaking with myself. I do not fear judgement or criticism, for I know my place is not to fear. I have courage and strength to remain open so the Creator may use my words and body for his purpose of love. I am nothing but my body, yet I am also the Creator. My interactions with others are not shallow and meaningless. I remain open and the Creator uses me at his will - typically in the form of service to others or teach/learning with another self.
Again, I do not claim to be a wanderer, as that information is meaningless. I do claim to be a fearless servant of the Creator. My focus shall remain on my tasks and best translate the love I have been given. I am open to contact if anyone feels called to do so or if I may offer another service.
I do not claim I am a Wanderer, as I do not have access to information from previous lives and any such claims are meaningless- for we are here to love/serve. However, since 3 or 4 years old, I have been very different from my peers. I have been loud, loving, and full of more energy than I or anyone else knew what to do with. This was not diagnosed as any "ADD" disorder as my grades were exceptional in advanced classes and I could hold my attention as long as I needed to complete my creative endeavors.
As my time in public school continued, my life became more strange. I knew love so very well. I don't mean being polite, I mean having compassion and understanding for each individual. I also had more "energy" (what I now believe is a consequence of my extreme polarity). I was too often ridiculed by my peers or even teachers for having an open heart and being so voice full in my thoughts.
As time progressed, I didn't have a hard time making friends, but rather finding friends that were dear to me. I could help shine with many others, but I always felt incomplete in being normal. The others did not see things as I did, they did not experience the feelings of joy that I did, they did not see the obvious love we are called to give. For that was fine, but I did not directly know that I was to be teaching my peers and teachers.
Now I am 24 years-old and I am realized again, that I am far from normal. The way I interpret this world is vastly different than a 'normal human being'. I used to joke that whatever caused "Depression" in people, than I must have the opposite. Since my public school days, I've completed 2 degrees, started 2 businesses, and met more friends than I can recall. I have infinite creative love to give and the joy I experience as a result is nothing short of orgasmic.
I have also had many entheogenic experiences in which I have traveled to Venus, learned my purpose here is to help usher all other (selves) towards a light, and been broken many times to the point of true humility. (All before encountering the Ra Material)
My energies go far beyond businesses and school, I have grown/learned greatly in my own spiritual understanding, which has brought me to the Law of One Material. I quickly became obsessed with this material, as for me, it was as close as I can recall to hearing the Creator speak in English. I would listen to the audio on the way to/from work and diligently study the texts at night, often meditating on the lessons from Ra.
Now, I find myself humbled and grateful for my life nearly constantly. I am fully aware our material universe is an illusion and that I am one with everything. When I speak with others, I am speaking with myself. I do not fear judgement or criticism, for I know my place is not to fear. I have courage and strength to remain open so the Creator may use my words and body for his purpose of love. I am nothing but my body, yet I am also the Creator. My interactions with others are not shallow and meaningless. I remain open and the Creator uses me at his will - typically in the form of service to others or teach/learning with another self.
Again, I do not claim to be a wanderer, as that information is meaningless. I do claim to be a fearless servant of the Creator. My focus shall remain on my tasks and best translate the love I have been given. I am open to contact if anyone feels called to do so or if I may offer another service.