I used to feel so alive and in the moment. Memories had color. My dreams were vivid. I was a mysteriously content person when I first came accross the LOO. I've been diagnosed w depression and schizophrenia since I was 20. Ups and downs, but I am beginning to really hate who I am and how I live.
Tired of everything being so gray. Tired of never being able to escape perservative, gmo, organ agitating food and other toxicities. I am paranoid and think alot of my minds potential is already gone to waste and locked away from eating awful food all my life. Tired of money. I had faith in the future, now I am blind. I hate taking my medicine for my disorders. I dump my antidepressents in the garbage and I cant stop my seroquel, or I get withdrawals similar to heroin withdrawals since I regularly take 800mg of it.
I feel like a failure. My friends and family care for me deeply, but they don't like my personality. I don't blame them. Sometimes I wish I never existed, ever.
The Law of One has had a tremendous impact on my life. Ever since i was a young teenager I meditated on the universe and thought about what death was like obessesively. I thought I had insomnia because it kept me up sometimes nights with no sleep whatsoever but really my mind just wanted to meditate and have answers and sometimes it would do anything to get closer to the original thought. The Law of One was like I almost wrote it myself. I was stunned at how authentic the information was. Really I first found the whole LOO from a google search that got me to the brown note book and the google was asking about something that occurred in a dream. Anyway, I really hope I didn't f*** my polarity up with my crummy life. ..
Sorry for negativity. I just don't know what to do anymore
Tired of everything being so gray. Tired of never being able to escape perservative, gmo, organ agitating food and other toxicities. I am paranoid and think alot of my minds potential is already gone to waste and locked away from eating awful food all my life. Tired of money. I had faith in the future, now I am blind. I hate taking my medicine for my disorders. I dump my antidepressents in the garbage and I cant stop my seroquel, or I get withdrawals similar to heroin withdrawals since I regularly take 800mg of it.
I feel like a failure. My friends and family care for me deeply, but they don't like my personality. I don't blame them. Sometimes I wish I never existed, ever.
The Law of One has had a tremendous impact on my life. Ever since i was a young teenager I meditated on the universe and thought about what death was like obessesively. I thought I had insomnia because it kept me up sometimes nights with no sleep whatsoever but really my mind just wanted to meditate and have answers and sometimes it would do anything to get closer to the original thought. The Law of One was like I almost wrote it myself. I was stunned at how authentic the information was. Really I first found the whole LOO from a google search that got me to the brown note book and the google was asking about something that occurred in a dream. Anyway, I really hope I didn't f*** my polarity up with my crummy life. ..
Sorry for negativity. I just don't know what to do anymore