07-16-2010, 09:04 PM
2nd post
Theres so much love that I feel from this site! Certainly homelike here!
My relationship is dying a death. He's pretty way out himself (shamanic practitioner stuff), but he's suffering because I no longer have the tendancy to do the psychological/subjective level. It's loveliest in my heart, and I've been mostly ripple-free since March, thanks to the first of several particularly amazing out of bod. experiences. From then on, its life has been less and less time orientated, more filled with synchronicity and pleasure. I've naturally gone deeper into yoga/meditaion every day, mostly raw food that I grow, plus nuts and spring water. I've been for years into internal organ cleansing with fastings and herbs, so thats become more present. My vibe feels high, I love it high, it takes maintenance and its SO worth it.
I cannot be in a rel. now, cus I'm free, not limited, and cannot be focussing my love/energy on him to the extent I used to. It would drain me. I have so much love that seems to flood out of me, and it's for everyone, unconditionally. I feel like I cannot do my life purpose as well if he remains attached.
He feels utterly freaked, jealous and all sorts of other things. I can no longer go into his emotional baggage anymore, or be chance being a part of it. It's the time to let go. My mind readily admits that it has no more answers to give, and that its out of it's depth.
All around me, there are people waking up. Sometimes it seems like almost everyone I come into contact with is lifting up, feeling something higher, and having a clearer feeling of Truth. I'm so so excited by this, and feel like letting go of everything and moving fearlessly and deeper into this peace, contentment etc.
My focus has moved in the direction of my friends, especially new friends who I've made since March. My hermit dna now is next to some dna of its opposite! I cannot limit this love, and just want to share it, and anchor us all in light as DKJ says!
How do you feel re. relationships? If you're in one, what changes do you notice?
Theres so much love that I feel from this site! Certainly homelike here!
My relationship is dying a death. He's pretty way out himself (shamanic practitioner stuff), but he's suffering because I no longer have the tendancy to do the psychological/subjective level. It's loveliest in my heart, and I've been mostly ripple-free since March, thanks to the first of several particularly amazing out of bod. experiences. From then on, its life has been less and less time orientated, more filled with synchronicity and pleasure. I've naturally gone deeper into yoga/meditaion every day, mostly raw food that I grow, plus nuts and spring water. I've been for years into internal organ cleansing with fastings and herbs, so thats become more present. My vibe feels high, I love it high, it takes maintenance and its SO worth it.
I cannot be in a rel. now, cus I'm free, not limited, and cannot be focussing my love/energy on him to the extent I used to. It would drain me. I have so much love that seems to flood out of me, and it's for everyone, unconditionally. I feel like I cannot do my life purpose as well if he remains attached.
He feels utterly freaked, jealous and all sorts of other things. I can no longer go into his emotional baggage anymore, or be chance being a part of it. It's the time to let go. My mind readily admits that it has no more answers to give, and that its out of it's depth.
All around me, there are people waking up. Sometimes it seems like almost everyone I come into contact with is lifting up, feeling something higher, and having a clearer feeling of Truth. I'm so so excited by this, and feel like letting go of everything and moving fearlessly and deeper into this peace, contentment etc.
My focus has moved in the direction of my friends, especially new friends who I've made since March. My hermit dna now is next to some dna of its opposite! I cannot limit this love, and just want to share it, and anchor us all in light as DKJ says!
How do you feel re. relationships? If you're in one, what changes do you notice?