Anthropomorphic Shamanism
04-30-2017, 04:04 PM, (This post was last modified: 04-30-2017, 04:04 PM by IndigoGeminiWolf.)
#61
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Written back on 3/20/08

My dream fades

     to another memory
     with whispers
     in silence
where a voice tells me to
     visit the river
     that flows between our worlds.
Some call it the Lifestream,
     some, the life force energy;
     that connection between me
               as a human
               as FurryBlueNaki
     and
          (Dear husky)
     I am not afraid to cry aloud
     in the night
     for those I miss who
     have never done me wrong;
     never left me stranded.
And I see this river,
     of it's multiple hues
     shimmering, reflecting
     the radiance of two bodies,
     the warmth of passion
     that I hold for my fursona.
So now,
     (Dear wolf anthro)
     Call to me
     and I will be there
     for I have known pain
     of loneliness, and
     I will traverse the distance,
     the remote stretch of time
     that has disjointed our memory
     of one another.

There is an anthro somewhere who needs me and I need them.
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04-30-2017, 04:05 PM, (This post was last modified: 04-30-2017, 04:05 PM by IndigoGeminiWolf.)
#62
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Written on 3/19/08

A friend of mine, one day

gave me insight into my
attitude on things.
Without telling me,
 he told me to look
 into the eyes of the wolf
 and I would see
 a certain reflection.
Whenever I meditate on this,
 I never see my own reflection,
 but still cannot make out
 who I am,
  or
 what I should be.
It is this blue wolf anthro
 that hides inside,
 afraid to come out
 into a world so different
 from his.
It is the art that
 drives me,
 satisfies me
 and gives me a reason
 to do better,
 to do more.
And how much further I must drive
 to meet the FurryBlueNaki
 within me,
 I am closer than I think
 to finding.

There is an anthro somewhere who needs me and I need them.
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04-30-2017, 04:07 PM, (This post was last modified: 04-30-2017, 04:07 PM by IndigoGeminiWolf.)
#63
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Written on 3/17/08


I am destined by my blue fur,
a cool-burning power within me
that is unbridled and satisfying.
 
That former place of darkness
and safety was to help me learn
the choices I make would leave
their echo on me.
And now I walk down this corridor
and see a many thousand doors
that represent all my simultaneous realities.
I know what lies immediately behind many
of these doors, for they are the choices I make,
though I know not where each one will eventually lead.
I have the guide within me, telling me
which way I should go, what is morally and naturally
right for me, but I need only the courage to listen.
And now, I lie a third through my journey of life,
before I transition to where I see what I've worked for,
what I've longed for, become permanently and
undisputedly lucid.
So, husky friend, will you take my hand and journey
with me, for I have an understanding, and this learning
must be done
together.

There is an anthro somewhere who needs me and I need them.
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04-30-2017, 04:08 PM,
#64
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Written on 3/13/08

Today,

   when we visited the den mother,  she
   played the flute for us;
the things we saw
     when our minds journeyed
      throughout reality.

You found me up in a tree
      and commented
      (understandably)
      "Wolves can't climb trees"
Aye, but I'm a blue wolf anthro
   and I must see
   what I can
   what is out there.
   I've always had
   my freedom,   and
                         my friend
                         who you've been to me
                         still remind me of the
                         notes on the air;
                         that gift the mother gave to us
                         before the den went dark.

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04-30-2017, 04:09 PM,
#65
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Written on 3/12/08

Then I had another flashback;

perhaps a memory of
when you and I took separate trains.
I passed the lone tree
          (the memory)
to the place of my home
          (of dreams)
you went to the city
          but,
how does the husky fit in
          among this world of humans
          when human
          is all they know?
Yet, this is a human's world
          and I knew
          I needed to
          escape my
                              imagination
          and come back
          to their world
          to live.
How does this wolf fit in, when
his blue fur gives him away,   and
          husky,
          will we find each other
          riding
          together
          on
          the same train?

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04-30-2017, 04:11 PM,
#66
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Written on 3/11/08


Remember the days
        and the nights
on the plains of the Alaskan tundra
   when
I was the frightened wolf cub (the quiet one)
            ...and it was you who...
and I was calmed;
yet
    even now when the moon
    shines
    and lights
        the landscape a silvery
        glow
I remember how you found me,
       and rocked me to sleep in your paws;
  and though I am older than you
      my spirit is this cub.

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04-30-2017, 04:12 PM, (This post was last modified: 05-01-2017, 07:22 PM by IndigoGeminiWolf.)
#67
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Anthros are in a certain gamut within the spectrum of infinite anthroness. The closer to infinite anthroness, the more they are One with everything, and the more of true anthros they are. Because then they begin to exhibit the traits of many more anthros. The anthros are infinite in number. If they are infinite in anthroness, then they are One with Creator, in Unity with All That Is, and can birth universes of which they simply ARE.

It's about what they can accept; if they can have no resistance to the flow of the Universe. Then they are their true self, having accepted all their flaws and the flaws of all others. It's about having integrity and honesty, and striving for balance. In fact as they progress, they will clear out flaws in their personality and other areas. Their awareness will increase, as will their focus and ability to hold attention on specific thoughts. If they do this to an intensely and infinitesimally precise degree, they are potentially an anthro god. They have touched infinite intelligence.


I have to reconcile that beings on the time/space or Otherworld planes don't spiritually advance. Unless the Overworld and Underworld are just different dimensions of space/time. But I think not. I will need to investigate whether this above that I have intuited is indeed true. I will learn more as I go on.

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05-01-2017, 07:08 PM,
#68
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
^^Be sure to read the one above if you haven't because I changed it from [dupe post] to something more substantial.

Today I saw my guide again as an anthro. He talked for some time, and I recorded it by speaking what thoughts he put in my mind to my cellphone.
I was using drumming sounds out loud so it recorded all those. Then I went through and transcribed the 20-something minute (cut down from 40 mins by removing non-talking parts).
I can't really post it though because my guide wants to keep it between us. Otherwise I could be giving some of my power away. There are certain things he lets me talk about.
I value his opinion and he values mine. But yes the audio recorder is necessary otherwise I forget 90-95% of what happened.

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05-02-2017, 07:57 AM,
#69
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Tips I learned.

When listening to drumming or any other audio to help enter trance state, use headphones.
Record your voice using a cellphone or voice recorder set on a table by you.
Practice sitting up straight and not slouching. It's easy to nod off when you slouch and have audio you're listening to as well.
Find good transcription software, because the process of listening and re-listening without losing your place can be difficult.

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05-03-2017, 05:54 AM, (This post was last modified: 05-04-2017, 02:04 AM by IndigoGeminiWolf.)
#70
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Another anthro furry video I made.
I don't know the music artist because the name is in Russian, and I can't type those characters.
But you can use Shazam or SoundHound to find out.




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05-03-2017, 09:44 AM, (This post was last modified: 05-03-2017, 03:59 PM by IndigoGeminiWolf.)
#71
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Long text below. It was my 2nd session of going into the Underworld of Celtic Shamanism.
This was the first time I used Dragon NaturallySpeaking to transcribe my words while I spoke them.
Session was approx. 44 minutes.
Sorry if the editing was poor. It made some mistakes and I couldn't remember the right word to use.

So this is straight narration of me going into a shamanic journey.

TL;DR at bottom.



I get signs of different religions being correct. Like this Dragon program I'm using it substituted the word shamanic for demonic it was calling shamanic demonic. I just have to get my courage up. And I have to go in with focus and not be lazy minded. I hear sounds in the background but I'm the only one awake.



Just breathing in white light and surrounding my body with the light to protect me from negativity. Am I going to fast? Is that too many journeys going on such a short time? I keep barely nodding off on writing that line between conscious wakefulness and unconsciousness in like a dream and it happens really quickly. I come on the ledge and edge of some sort and I could fall one way or the other and the drumming tends to bring me back to alertness. I need to not have a lazy mind. I need to engage my inner senses as I go on this journey.


I'm trying not to say too much before I actually get into the underworld. I see a lake across from that is an island with the cave so I'm going through the water. There's a path in the water and I can go underwater for as long as I need. Before I go in and go to bring down more that white lights to protect me from negativity and oneness find that well it's right there and throw all my troubles and things into the well so that I do not take them with me on the journey, and it makes me feel like a kid again.


I'm going to be having the readings from someone on the forum that I visit about my journey and things to watch out for. It's a little warm in here I can't turn the fan on right now because the back of it where the motor is is really hot. It seems to be ready.


I'm getting more comfortable using this Dragon program. It was a little distracting at first but I think I'm getting the hang of it. It reminds me I need to look up what train of thought means. I'm going into the cave now there are gems on the walls that light up and like to pass. My tunnels always seem so short like I get to the other world really quickly. They're not really drawn out. I have trouble visualizing a very long tunnel or seeing one but I'm in the tunnel. I feel myself going into a trance. And I'm learning to multitask.


I just had a small dream about lawful good and lawful chaotic. I just got the words “congratulations you just killed your character” and I saw an image of someone snapping a character's neck of the cartoon character and it makes me wonder what other characters they visit don't be dead if they did that. Or it may just when they want the character to be alive get images created new that they then can be with in their mind so the things you do to characters can have an impact on them even more so when you go into the other world through shamanic journey.


You can't make this stuff up is the image of getting now. I usually hear words in my mind. They're talking to me but there's a secondary kind of feeling of the whole situation that I'm not always picking up on. So there's some inside memories with these characters that have not been made available to me or I see something that I just did not understand maybe it's not weird or anything like that it's just that I cannot conceptualize it into words.


I really want to be able to post this today at least this one journey so that I can have a example out there of using this Dragon NaturallySpeaking program for dictating your journeys and the effects of their having. I put my hand at the door on the door which is close to the underworld. I slowly opened it and support to pirates rushed in to the room I'm in the coveted go out with them. Something about profanity dates baiting the curse words that people say. I see it image of The Simpsons and there was a phrase mentioned that I forgot totally soon as it was said I forgot if I hesitate sometimes for a moment in what is said to me I'll forget it it's on the tip of my tongue with the substance that but I just can't remember.


I hear voices that say "we will not try to embarrass you." I open the door again and I'm out in the winter world. It's cartoony the underworld. I hate it when I get all itchy and have to scratch my feet or whatever it's very distracting the scratch one scratch and another appears. The scratches are deep in the skin that you really gotta dig be scratch yourself to hardly will mark.


One anthro is waving his butt at me. I told him that's not what I came here for but to learn about myself and about anthros. I'm just trying to convince myself that this is real. I have a lot to learn and I'm not sure how long it will take to learn. But I have years even a decade or more to really get good is as I can. I want to get good in order that I might be able to help people find their inner anthro and to help anthros on the other side there to find peace or to find their way home even though I don't yet do not know how to find my way home. I'm here in the underworld and I see new creatures new animals. They're interesting very hard to describe.


I hear the phrase ash alien. It seems I have lost a lot of my sexuality towards them but it's only been a couple days that might come later. I see Zabivaka again he's riding a tricycle and he's the right size for and he waves at me. He says tell me what you want. And I find that my own responses are trying to say something that doesn't really resonate with the way I feel so when I react to answer. When I answer them I need to think about what I say and not just on what comes from the top of my head.


Need to stay awake. Just saw something about dog food a little presentation but it was overly quick, it was like instantaneous. I got the information without really thinking about it much.


With practice I should be able to do these dictations more perfectly and leave little room for error. It's so warm in here but I have to wait for my fan to cool off before I can turn it back on. I'm probably going to have a lot to edit but most of the words were captured which is the most important thing it saves me from having to transcribe possibly an hour worth of audio.


I need to not be so lazy minded because I had an image there of glitter covered Easter eggs in real natural bunnies are holding. But they're doing some stuff with these eggs that were passing them out or show them off or what. I just speak out I want to learn about this place. I need a guide to transport me wherever I see. I see the owl from Winnie the Pooh the wise owl and how he talks. I don't remember how he talks exactly. But I think the other ones went to him for counseling.


I want to build up my psychic and spiritual abilities without overwhelming myself with the truth that I seek. I'm here now waiting but I am patient. There is a star that's floating by slowly five or six pointed star. I have accounted five points is like a yellow star out of super Mario brothers or something adventure. There's a lot of bizarre randomness in this space, not chaotic. It's just that my mind tends to let go and images and random things stream in.


I'm hearing the voice “this is your time. Cherish it, don't be afraid and rock it, you've gotten your power back." I wonder if I'm the only shaman in training to do something (I forgot what I was say I lose my train of thought so easily). If I don't dictate what comes my way then I forget it almost immediately and I don't have time to think about it again. There is so much to learn here about myself about the anthros and about this world and the Overworld too in the middle world. I have lots of training to undergo but I am confident that I can make progress.


Just waiting. Waiting for anyone to show up that wants to guide me that I feel is good for me. I found a magnet that hovers over my head it is a room temperature superconductor it's in the shape of a Hershey's kiss and just hovers over your hand. You don't even really feel any back push against it take my hand away from it at first it almost fell then the scene sort of changed to where it floats with my hand whether moving to the left or right it stays there until I grab it out with my other hand and pull away and there's a little sensation of multiple mice went home.


The more I get into this more buzz that I feel filling the energy goes and anthroness I may have to reprogram those works that were because I'm not sure if the system here has it it's a unique word that kind of I made up.


And it's possible for an anthro to become even more anthro by their personality, emotions; their very makeup and how they overall are as a person will make them more than anthro. I haven't discovered the defining traits yet of what makes an anthro. We know what they look like; everyone is in agreement on that. And that was all I got.


I'm finally invited to a meal with an old woman. She made it. It is some kind of soup with ravioli in it and a mushroom base. I try son it's very savory. Umami as the Japanese put it it's a very savory salty slightly salty taste to it and I see another anthro wolf. He stood to my right taking pictures of everything. So they have technology.


It's good to come this far to trust me because at first they were afraid of me and they would hide and not come out. I knew they were there. I saw them peek out from behind trees they were curious because one of the guides was with me there and he invited me to come back at any time this world seems to evolve as I go through it. As I leave and return over and over again it seems that it's becoming a more friendly place for me.


I don't know how long I have but next time I need to clear my throat as I keep coughing up some mucus or something and it makes it a little bit harder to talk. When I hear the language of Spanish when I think about Spanish words my mouth starts watering because of the dialect of it. I'm salivating now because I'm hearing some Spanish and is just the automatic reflex. I can't even control it. Taking more time to relax and get deeper into a state now.


I see an anthro with his canine genitalia. It's a cartoon that is selectively realistic and he standing up in my mind is kind of playing control I try not to. It's hard to avoid that because my mind my ego likes to make things worse for me it seems that learning what I'm going to learn with after shaman is him will make it better for them. I will have much more peace I will be more pleased with myself I have a greater amount of confidence and I'll be so eager to share this experience with others and it might not be a enlightened experience I don't know I've never seen enlightenment.


I have felt so much love in my heart chakra. Before that it made me cry; I couldn't even believe it. At that time I was alone. I think my mom was in her room then. Now it shifted to alcohol and I was like I don't do alcohol anymore. It messes with your aura and your chakras can be blocked because of it if you drink too much but my stomach can't handle very much drinking coffee cause it dries my throat makes me gag coughing all that sometimes after eating a sandwich. It's always in the back of my throat that it gets irritated it might be over underactive throat the communication one because I don't normally communicate.


Or should I say I don't communicate well with others. This is going to be a lot to add because Dragon does make mistakes but most of the time they're accurate. I've had to add words to the dictionary and it because of their not English work some of them last Zabivaka came here with Cecil and he gave me a thumbs up because he was gone on business or something and he says “over there is a treasure chest of wishes. Let's go explore together he says. And I say “can I do this another day? I want to get back to look into how well this program is doing." So I give him a quick hug, tight hug telling him I love him and that if I ever did anything wrong I did not mean to hurt him for my spirit guide is strong.


He waves as I walked back to the real world back from this other plane of existence this alternate parallel reality they could be all in the same. And I come out of the cave and sit down before the lake and ponder the things that I had learned and the white mist around me, the white cloud pulled me back into wakefulness.
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TL;DR
Had to train Dragon program to recognize shamanic, instead of thinking I said demonic.
Image of someone killing a cartoon anthro by snapping its neck.
Anthro waves his butt at me, but I'm not here for that. I'm here to learn about myself and anthros.
Zabivaka is riding his tricycle and waving to me.
Don't be lazy minded when journeying.
Heard a voice “this is your time. Cherish it, don't be afraid and rock it, you've gotten your power back."
Had a room temperature superconductor material in the shape of a Hershey's kiss, that floated an inch above our hands.
Got soup with ravioli in it and a mushroom base that was savory, from an old woman.
An anthro wolf took pictures of everything.
The Spanish language makes my mouth water uncontrollably.

Anthro energy knocks me out.

There is an anthro somewhere who needs me and I need them.
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05-04-2017, 01:58 AM,
#72
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Created this video using one of my favorite instrumentals.
I believe there is a connection between emotions and music.
Included are various memes, both spiritual and about life.
Song: Sunday Shine
Artist: Ben Woolman






I think this is good because I had 4 time synchronicities before I woke up at 12:34 am.

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05-04-2017, 09:39 PM,
#73
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
I believe this is a preview to a movie that may come out, by a few furries.




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05-04-2017, 11:42 PM,
#74
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
The Dragon program I am using is very helpful. It is like 95% accurate. It gets words like 'anthros' wrong and puts them as 'and throws', even though I  taught it how I say anthros.

I don't know how deep into a trance I can go if I have to keep checking it to make sure it is correct. Like each paragraph I have to come back and fix things. But it's the best out there.

I still get ideas and get to interact with beings.

But sometimes when going back to correct, I can't remember what I said, so it is harder to correct when the words Dragon uses aren't even near what I said.

I didn't record audio of this last session I had (which was a continuation of what I did before, regarding elementals.) But maybe I still will in the future.

I've worked out most of the kinks in the process.

My guide doesn't always show up, but I intuit advice from him.

Seeing so many synchronicities that only I would get, because of how personal they are. That is besides the repeating numbers I frequently see now.

I even got a little nervous before I started the session today that maybe no one will believe me, and that my work that I will have ended up spending a lot on will just go bust. It is still a plan though.

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05-05-2017, 10:04 AM,
#75
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
My angelite and moonstone pendant. I use a silver chain to use it as a pendulum for dowsing from my subconscious.
I also talk to my spirit guide, or higher self, or even individual characters with this.

[Image: Angelite_Moonstone.jpg]

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05-05-2017, 01:11 PM, (This post was last modified: 05-05-2017, 01:13 PM by IndigoGeminiWolf.)
#76
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
I had to order a $40 headset because the webcam mic wasn't cutting it. Too many mistakes that I had to correct.
It should take 5-10 business days to get. So I might not have much to post in the meantime. I think I'm also having a few anthro dreams,
but I don't really remember them.

I'll be able to use my keyboard for typing up experiences I have. Want to dedicate some time, at least daily to it.

When I'm not busy with duties, and journeying, I spend time allowing my guide's anthro energy to flow through me
and help release blockages.

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05-05-2017, 08:06 PM,
#77
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Another one of my many synchronicities that I saw today. I had planned before to go to another restaurant, but my intuition told me to come here:

[Image: 222_Sign.jpg]

Here's some info on the number 222.

http://sacredscribesangelnumbers.blogspot.com/2011/07/angel-number-222.html

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05-08-2017, 02:41 AM, (This post was last modified: 05-08-2017, 02:44 AM by IndigoGeminiWolf.)
#78
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Another furry/anthro music video I made, set to a good song by Direct 2 Brain. The art and music are not my own.




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05-08-2017, 02:43 AM, (This post was last modified: 05-08-2017, 02:52 AM by IndigoGeminiWolf.)
#79
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
My most recent furry music video, with lots of anthros.

Note, it starts off a bit loud.






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05-08-2017, 03:36 AM, (This post was last modified: 05-09-2017, 11:44 AM by IndigoGeminiWolf.)
#80
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Here's my Youtube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCqRaWtbzpxwNAsgirUI7hCw

In case you want to subscribe and see other videos that I put up there.

Some may be NSFW because of underwear.

EDIT: Fixed URL

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05-08-2017, 05:47 PM, (This post was last modified: 05-08-2017, 06:07 PM by IndigoGeminiWolf.)
#81
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
This is my spirit guide now, as drawn by Vallhound: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23460691/

My guide's name is Cecil. Maybe I will see this form of him in my future journeys.
I wanted a picture of who would meet me in the afterlife.

It's called "Welcome to Anthrohood"

If you saw him, would you say his chakras were balanced?

[Image: Cecil_Wolf.jpg]

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05-09-2017, 11:38 AM,
#82
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
(05-08-2017, 03:36 AM)IndigoGeminiWolf Wrote:  Here's my Youtube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCF0pVplsI8R5kcAqgtoRqoA

wrong link

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05-09-2017, 11:46 AM,
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RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
(05-09-2017, 11:38 AM)isis Wrote:  
(05-08-2017, 03:36 AM)IndigoGeminiWolf Wrote:  Here's my Youtube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCF0pVplsI8R5kcAqgtoRqoA

wrong link

Thanks. I fixed that.

Correct link: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCqRaWtbzpxwNAsgirUI7hCw

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05-10-2017, 09:21 PM, (This post was last modified: 05-10-2017, 09:24 PM by IndigoGeminiWolf.)
#84
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
This picture represents the best way (proxy) to do energy exchanges with my guide.
I learned the picture is a decent representation of him. I didn't want all the chakra colors on it cause that would get in the way of his body.
We are here to serve one another, and by doing so, serve others. I have like 30 pages of notes already on our experiences.
I'd love to see how far I get in 5 years of training myself and looking for a physical teacher.
I have a huge 12" x 16" 300 DPI image that I could print out as a poster if I wanted.

(05-08-2017, 05:47 PM)IndigoGeminiWolf Wrote:  This is my spirit guide now, as drawn by Vallhound: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23460691/

My guide's name is Cecil. Maybe I will see this form of him in my future journeys.
I wanted a picture of who would meet me in the afterlife.

It's called "Welcome to Anthrohood"

If you saw him, would you say his chakras were balanced?

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There is an anthro somewhere who needs me and I need them.
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05-15-2017, 09:21 PM,
#85
RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
As I've focused on that image of my guide, I've been focused on receiving anthro energy, or more precisely a certain subset of all that is anthro.

I'm happy with myself, because even as of yesterday, when I accepted anthro energy from my spirit guide, it would knock me out for several seconds.

I have gotten somewhat used to the energy, and am now allowing it to help reprogram my own field.

This most likely won't affect me physically, but will allow a mental transformation. To see myself as one through my 3rd eye.

I didn't nod off this time, but I did become a little irritable. Probably pushing against some subconscious blockage.

I took a break, and then went back to it for like 10 minutes before I decided to write here before I turn off my pc for the night.

There is an anthro somewhere who needs me and I need them.
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05-16-2017, 06:18 AM,
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RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Has your fursuit arrived yet?
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05-16-2017, 08:45 AM,
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RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
(05-16-2017, 06:18 AM)SMC Wrote:  Has your fursuit arrived yet?

No, the head hasn't been made yet, nor the footpaws. But tail and handpaws are finished. She's working on 10 fursuits currently.
Maybe another month or two.

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05-17-2017, 11:19 AM,
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RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
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05-17-2017, 06:17 PM, (This post was last modified: 05-17-2017, 06:20 PM by IndigoGeminiWolf.)
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RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
My shadow self strikes again.

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I had kind of a nightmare and it's a relief that I woke up. Nobody liked me. We are all going to sing a song in class when the whole class turned against me. I don't remember what kind of song was but other people started singing demented stuff. I think even the teacher was against me yes the teacher was a woman and she didn't like me either. I knew I wasn't going to get anywhere, so I just started singing about love. During this everyone in the class attacked me with pencils, stabbing me with them. No matter how much love I put out, they continued to attack.



I only woke up after experiencing this for like a minute or so, maybe 20 seconds. It didn't hurt so much physically the stabbing, only the emotional wounds. I tried to fight them off by grabbing their pencils but they continued on. I felt that they knew my secrets, they knew my dark stuff, and were punishing me for it. I think the teacher was playing a guitar. Nobody was singing the lyrics as they were in a book. I was only so strong, I couldn't fight them all. So my shadow self showed up again in a dream, this time way more powerful. Even my songs of love and the love I felt in my heart could not protect me. It shook me up.


This dream happened this afternoon. I had gotten back earlier about two hours ago from going out, and I was just exhausted. I had to sleep. I think the dream right before this may have led up to it. I remember I was out walking with a group of friends before this. I think we were going to various houses. It was daytime and all my dream, never night. In fact I was so tired I could not even do this anthro shamanism stuff. My brain is sort of in a fog now. I think I forgot to take my meds last night. But this is my shadow self coming out. It doesn't like me at all. It ended up in fear and me being as loving as I could in the moment. But love did not win out at that time.


But I am not perturbed. I will still seek out the shamanism because anthros are still so precious to me, and I want to learn about myself. I have a really dark side that does not like me. I don't remember if I did anything wrong in the dream. Maybe taking too much pride in what I was doing. It's easy in a dream to know that you have power. Knowing how to use it responsibly, and knowing when not to use it, can make all the difference. I don't believe I was showing off. It was just something that happened.
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I don't know why the shadow attacked me this 2nd time. Maybe it feels threatened. I had no hate in the dream, that I can remember.

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05-17-2017, 08:12 PM,
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RE: Anthropomorphic Shamanism
Perhaps it would be helpful to unified your self with your shadow. I see you said here about your shadow - "It doesn't like me at all." Lets put that in proper context and realizing that you are your shadow self you see it is more "a part of myself doesn't like me at all". Then you can start to look at that part and own it for what it is and not separate it from yourself. It is always tempting to characterize our shadow as an 'it' which seems to be separate from us, but it is that separation that shadow work is seeking to mend.
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