10-03-2011, 11:24 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-03-2011, 12:05 PM by AnthroHeart.)
Cool Meerie. What I would recommend, if you are willing, is to really get into that jealousy. Think about what makes you most jealous, and build the energy. Let the stories build. When it is peaked, relax, take time to reflect and allow you to integrate this. It will build your energy, your centeredness and stability. Our emotions are then held in a gyroscopic balance, around the intense gravity of our singularity (who we truly are), and are not easily swayed. It takes time. I've spent 2-3 hours at a stretch building the energy behind my sexual desire, and a whole day integrating it. And I would say don't push yourself too far. A little at a time goes a long way. It will move you more toward who you truly are, by not fighting against those impulses.
The desire will become much finer in its nuances. For example, before it was just really abrupt passion like thoughts of sex. Now, at this point, it's like, how does this characters mind interface with his consciousness, through his projected dna, to create the impulses in the brain, to create the movements of muscles, that create ripples in space/time that create a vibrational dance which resonates the senses. Ultimately, at my current level of understanding, it comes down to the fine balance of desire of being controlled by and desire to control our projections.
The desire will become much finer in its nuances. For example, before it was just really abrupt passion like thoughts of sex. Now, at this point, it's like, how does this characters mind interface with his consciousness, through his projected dna, to create the impulses in the brain, to create the movements of muscles, that create ripples in space/time that create a vibrational dance which resonates the senses. Ultimately, at my current level of understanding, it comes down to the fine balance of desire of being controlled by and desire to control our projections.