(07-09-2012, 04:42 PM)Ruth Wrote: I was thinking today that perhaps your Mother has set for you an example of loving your abuser.
Very true, Ruth. My mother has indeed set the example of a person who can still love a most vile abuser. However, no one should allow oneself to be abused in the name of sacrifice and love. It finally ends counterproductive for all. I feel for my mother who ended up being treated and frightened badly by her own son.
I have displayed manic mood swings and deep frightening violent temper. May be probably bi-polar disorder type. However, she still serves her son with patience and hope, believing all will get well. A son who just refuses to grow up despite almost coming close to middle age. Though, I do not wish to wallow in self-pity and self-loathing in the form of excessive admittance of one's ways of errors, I do feel that this thread is serving as a ray of healing for me and helping me mend my ways. I am being provided with very honest feedback from valuable friends here and it is helping me consciously track myself and catch myself as I interact with my mother.
As Ra, study of love and light is at the heart of evolution and I think we are all doing that together well here!
(07-09-2012, 04:45 PM)plenum Wrote: yeah, good luck with things Confused. How you relate to your mother affects how you relate to all feminine energies.
Thanks, plenum It is very kind and gentle of you, my brother! I love your presence on this thread.