03-05-2018, 03:46 PM
(03-04-2018, 11:17 AM)Bring4th_Jade Wrote: I want to try to understand but I guess I'm confused. What happened with the recycled glass comment? Was this person insulting you?
No not at all. It was more my paranoid thinking! It was a warm and friendly event and Heidi I are going to another one in 2 Saturdays time. Heidi's cousin and her husband sing at these events (husband on guitar), so we will be travelling further afield to go with them. The scenario just stimulated in me a pain that has yet to be healed, that's all. My speculating was pure projection on my part
Diane has it exactly right. There is a sense of loneliness within me. A desire for a deeper connection with other humans in general. Which I translate as a need for community going unmet. This is an old, old feeling that has resurfaced and this was a just a stimulus. It was actually a missed opportunity for me to become emotionally naked and express what I was feeling and needing in relation to the moment. I felt left out of the conversation that's all. However I did have a wonderful conversation with Catherine's husband, Deitmar. About 45 minutes of one 2 one while we listened to other performers on the stage. He is a very laid back, gentle soul. Familiar with the LOO as well!
(03-04-2018, 11:17 AM)Bring4th_Jade Wrote: Usually vegan festivals bring out a lot of environmentalists, so using recycled glass would be a benefit to purchasing the product for someone who is oriented towards creating less waste on this planet. Many people would see the product as having more value being made with recycled packaging. Why do you believe there was a judgement on you based upon race?
Again, no objective evidence at all. Looking back I think it was more to do with my apprehension of environmentalists and the problematic nature of "identity politics". The activism itself is to be honoured, but what energy is it coming out of? This very "fear of possession", or suspicion, is enough to block out my own attempt to communicate authentically. Rather ironic come to think of it. :-/