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Interests: Serving the Creator and my other-selves, singing, reading for fun (romances, sci-fi and mysteries) collecting recipes, eating out (I love to do that!), hanging with St. Luke's Episcopal Church community of worship and singing in the choir, making the Law of One information more easily available, writing on a the second book of a three-book series on the principles of the Law of One, reading other channeling and spiritually oriented books, learning about bio-dynamic gardening and living, patting our kitties and keeping up with friends.

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In June of 2005 I kept a daily journal on a speaking trip to Britain and decided to keep the daily entries going on my return. If you would like to keep up with L/L Research and our activities, this is the place to do that. Nowadays it is Jim who writes the daily entry, and Gary writes the  blogworthy report (the bulleted list) detailing his and Austin's work at the helm of the L/L ship. We wish you blessings, light and love! Carla L. Rueckert-McCarty and Jim McCarty. To view the Camelot Journal archive, please visit

Published by Bring4th_Carla on March 30, 2015 7:46am.  Category: General



I was blessed again today to awaken to the steady breathing of my sweetie. Carla and I did our Morning Offering and then got her ready for her day. We tried doing the dressing change on my bed with Carla lying on her tummy, but that proved a painful proposition for her as well, so we still haven't found the best technique. Her wound continues to worsen and other areas around it are becoming damaged as well.


Carla was able to recover from the dressing change and the pain meds plus Xanax that I gave her helped her sleep and get out of the pain for the rest of the morning and into the afternoon when I held her hand while watching the Louisville basketball team lose a heart-breaker to Michigan State.


In the evening we watched a recorded WoodSongs Old Time Radio Hour program where the hour was split between two bluegrass bands the "Infamous String Dusters" and the "Elephant Revival". One of the ladies with the "Elephant Revival" played the hand saw with a bow and she also played the wash board as a percussion instrument. Both bands were lots of fun and made the toes tap all on their own.


Later in the evening we were happily surprised when Carla's brother, Tommy, and his wife, Cheryl, knocked on our door and after settling in a bit Tommy got out his 12-string guitar and played a mini concert for us. When he played songs whose words were written years ago by Carla I was thrilled to hear Carla singing along. It was a great session and Carla was more engaged than I had seen her in some time. It reminded me of a quote that I had just heard on the WoodSongs show from an hour earlier when a fellow named Frank Liddick was quoted as saying, "A few chords strummed with love on a guitar can do more good in the world than all the politicians and their words." I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.


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Published by Bring4th_Carla on March 29, 2015 7:50am.  Category: General



And the sound of Carla's breathing was heard in the land and there was rejoicing once again. Carla and I did our Morning Offering and then got her ready for her day. Her appetite is dwindling rapidly and she is in more pain than can be comprehended. It was the early afternoon before she was able to get to sleep and leave the pain behind. We tried using the bedside commode for the dressing change this morning, having Carla sit upright so I could get to her wound and she wouldn't have to bend over the pillows on the bed and have to support her weight with her wobbly legs. But it was too much work for her legs and arms, so tomorrow we will try another method.


I finished the sealing of air ducts from the furnace in the basement today. Our furnace should now be somewhat more efficient in how it circulates air in the house.


We took a couple of naps in the afternoon. I found a Great Performances program on Kentucky Educational Network "Mark Morris Dance Group who was performing "L'Allegro, il Peneroso ed il Moderato" which was very innovative and joyful and a real pleasure to watch. Then in the early evening the NCAA Tournament basketball games began again. I hung out with Carla and held her hand and watched Kentucky barely defeat Notre Dame and earn a trip to the Final Four in Indianapolis.


We completed our television watching with Austin City Limits where Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes performed their indy rock and roll in the first half hour, and in the second half hour Tuneyards shared their hip/jazz/improve style of music that was fun and unexpected. I said the prayer at the Gaia meditation tonight.





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Published by Bring4th_Carla on March 28, 2015 7:48am.  Category: General



The sweet sound of Carla snoozing in her bed woke me again this morning and put a smile on my heart. We did our Morning Offering and got her ready for her day. For some reason her wound continues to look rough and dark red in new places today, places that yesterday looked normal.


Shortly after lunch we had a meeting with a lady from Hosparus who gave us the rundown on what they have to offer people who may be in the last weeks of their lives and who wish to be as comfortable as possible. They didn't have anything better to offer us than what our Visiting Nurses Association nurses has to offer, so we decided to stay with the friends we have been with for the last four years.


I was thinking of some of the pleasures that we take for granted that Carla and I will not do again like take a ride in the car, go out to eat, and take a wheelchair ride around the neighborhood. The intense pain from Carla's wounds makes these activities torture for her, and it's sad to have to say good-bye to them. But we enjoy being together above all else and that is a golden lining to this cloud.


We shared another night of me holding Carla's hand while she slept and I watched NCAA Basketball games. Louisville's team defeated North Carolina State to advance to the Elite Eight. And then we discovered that when we shared a loving embrace that the energies that were created brought us back to those explosive inner realms of light and love that have always been there for us. It was a joy to behold the electric exchange that we have always known. I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.


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Published by Bring4th_Carla on March 27, 2015 7:44am.  Category: General



I awoke this morning to the sweetest sound that I have ever heard: Carla's slow, rhythmic breathing in her hospital bed just a few feet from my bed. After taking care of a few details of the morning Carla and I did our Morning Offering and then got her ready for her day.


We had hoped to see Mona this morning, but when Susie called she said that Mona was sick and wouldn't make it. When Susie asked how we were doing I told her about our decision not to have the back surgery and not to make any trips to see doctors any more she suggested that we make an appointment with Hosparus. I have heard of their services helping patients and families deal with caring for a loved one that is getting ready to make the transition to larger life, but I don't know if they can help us. So I made an appointment for tomorrow to see what they have to offer.


I got an email from MB suggesting I organize a galaround for Carla and her three good women friends who each lives about an hour away, all in different directions, for next week. They have gathered every few months since Carla has been bed-bound and share a meal and happy conversation. They all responded that they would be here to have a party with Carla.


I spent some time in the afternoon spreading duct sealant on our basement air ducts and then did a little ironing of some of my shirts. Ironing is such a relaxing thing to do.


Gary and Austin shared some lunchtime with us and we talked about what is happening in the L/L office:

  • Daily social media sharing.

  • Did the weekly bookkeeping.

  • Replied to some seeker email.

  • Sent out one last prisoner correspondence letter.

  • Had a shortened but still good lunch with Carla and Jim

  • Finished restructuring the "Recent Updates" section of the archive website.

  • Continued the digitization of the channeling archive, repairing a few cassette tapes.

  • Investigated a method for getting higher resolution images of the tarot into the Book IV PDF. Ordered a copy of The Royal Road to scan those images.

  • Received another hint for a missing session from Terry H. Tracked down the session in the paper archives and started the process of scanning and editing it for publishing.

  • Tweaked and published the first Light/Lines Newsletter of 2015, the spring edition, to the archive website. Then sent it to those subscribed to receive the newsletter via email. Available here:

  • Began transcribing the remaining section of the interview project. Been a while for these fingers. Hats off to those who volunteer to transcribe! It can be intensive. I used to transcribe all the channeling sessions through a lot of the 2000's, but most of that was slowly spoken channeling.

  • Began the rigorous testing of the online store. Most of it passes muster (and actually excites those of administrative distortions), but still kinks to work out.

  • Started an article in Sephira's The Architecture website project. So impressed by the thought-forms of this entity. I love meeting with intelligence greater than my own. Fortunately this sort of meeting happens nearly every day.

  • And in other news... for a solid two plus years, L/L Research was the lucky recipient of an unprecedented level of funding. During that time an extremely generous donor opened his heart to us. As a result our minds were freed for the very first time from the annual predicament of wondering if we would have enough money to meet the operational needs of L/L Research. (As we near the end of each year we invariably begin running on fumes.) It was a glorious time that allowed us to bring Austin into the office to work alongside moi, and Jim to retire his lawn service work, freeing up both him and me to devote ourselves more fully to L/L Research, and, in Jim's case, to be present for the always increasing needs of Carla's medically challenged friend, her physical complex, as Ra would call it. All good things must come to an end, though, as they say. The donor's final donation was made in December, 2014. We thank Larry from the bottom of our hearts for the time he gave us together in support of the mission of L/L Research.


We had a pretty simple evening as I watched a couple of NCAA Tournament basketball games while holding Carla's hand. We even did our protocol to the games. The second game was UK's demolition of West Virginia 78-39. The Path to Perfection continues. I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.


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Published by Bring4th_Carla on March 26, 2015 7:48am.  Category: General



Carla and I did our Morning Offering and then got her ready for her day. Her wound is looking pretty rough around the lower rim, and the bedsores look very sore and so they are. We did a transfer to the commode and on the way back to the bed Carla's legs gave out once again as they did almost a week ago. This made her very hesitant to make the journey to her hematologist which we were due to see in the mid-afternoon.


After lunch we got Carla ready to get into her wheelchair for the trip to the hematologist and her legs still refused to obey her commands. So Gary and I assisted Carla in getting into the chair. We couldn't figure any good way for both of us to lift her into the car, so I picked her up and maneuvered her most of the way into the seat and Gary put his hands through the rolled down car window to assist. He followed us to the doctor's office and we continued the lift and assist technique to transfer back to the wheelchair.


The labs and Procrit shot happened in good time, but we noticed that her hemoglobin level was down a point since two weeks ago. When we were ready to leave we gave Gary a call and he met us outside the doctor's office and again assisted in getting Carla into the car and once home into the wheelchair and, finally, to the safety and comfort of her bed. It was a very painful and terrifying experience for Carla and caused her to think seriously about future doctor visits.


Gary and Austin continued to produce the good work from the L/L office:

  • Shared L/L's work through social media.

  • Continued the digitization of the channeling archive.

  • Processed and shipped a few book orders and prisoner book requests.

  • Edited and formatted the Spring Light/Lines into PDF form. Should publish and send tomorrow.

  • Relistened to the "art of channeling" section, the final one that was sent out for transcription.

  • Wrote some prisoner correspondence, received some from Azeem, and sent them all off to prisoners.

  • Began restructuring the "Recent Updates" section of the archive website, doing away with the old yearly archive system and installing a system of fresh and consistent updates and archiving.

  • Researched the prospect that the tarot deck used during the Ra contact might now being public domain, printed as it was during the 60's. Found a labyrinth of copyright law details and complicated guides explaining how one might go about finding out if a work is now public domain, short of asking the previous copyright holder. Started digging and decided it might be best just to ask the organization directly, hoping they will give a straightforward answer.

  • Received from Frank K. an edited Dutch translation of Book I. Thank you, Frank! He not only got the 1980's Dutch translation into digital and edited it, but he says he will try to find a translator to finish the series. Thanks to Frank we realized that Dutch was the very first language into which Ra was translated. Previously we thought that Terry Hsu's early 2000's Chinese translation was the first.

  • Wrote Andi about his workflow and the Dutch translation. He is working on finishing the Portuguese Book II and will then move onto the Dutch translation.

  • Worked with Carla and Jim to write the "Notes to Our Readers" section of the upcoming spring Light/Lines Newsletter. Then

  • Corresponded with the translators who replied to the launching of the new translation forums. So far there is some enthusiasm, and the first to use it is Daniel A., the Portuguese translator who was already actively questioning the online community regarding his translation questions. He is only one of two translators of which we're aware who is on Bring4th.

  • Worked with tech support for the IMU course and got text versions of Carla's quizzes to use when checking against the quizzes in the new system to ensure everything was transferred over successfully.

  • Set up a new system for sharing content between Louisville, Brussels, and Bielefeld; L/L's, Micheline's, and Jochen's HQ's, respectively.


Carla has decided that not only does she not want the back surgery, but she does not want to make any more trips to see doctors. We will ask her hematologist to reinstate his orders for our visiting nurse to take labs once every two weeks to check on her hemoglobin levels, and if they get too low we will hire a for-profit ambulance service to transport her to Park Towers North at Baptist Hospital for blood transfusions.


It was a very sobering day with Carla's first mention that it may be that her incarnation is nearing its end. If she still cannot use her legs from now on that will mean we will have to develop new techniques for changing her dressing, using the commode, and changing her bedding. We can do that, and I am most grateful to be able to help her in any way needed. Until I met Carla I was a loner, having spent six and one half years in the ‘70s living alone in the wilderness and loving it, but now I have great difficulty imagining this world without her. So for as long as I have the good fortune of being with her I will care for her the best way that I can, with lots of love and smiles. I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.


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Published by Bring4th_Carla on March 25, 2015 8:17am.  Category: General



Carla and I did our Morning Offering and then got her ready for her day. The lower rim of her surgical wound continues to look bad. It's dark red which suggests damage and Mona and I are still trying to find a way to get this area back to normal. The bedsores are still quite active and painful as is the gluteal crease wound. And Carla has to lie upon all these wounds because she cannot turn from side to side due to her arthritically fragile shoulders and hips.


Carla sleeps a lot and Mona said that was OK, but I miss talking to her as much as usual. At least I know she doesn't feel the pain when she is asleep. Actually, her pain opens my heart in compassion for her suffering, and I am pretty sure that is what the pain is for in our pre-incarnatively chosen plans. It all seems to be playing out as is necessary for us to do the personal part of our work in our lives. It does help to deal with all the pain and problems to have a handle on why things are as they are.


The heating and cooling guys came by today to get our air-conditioner ready for the upcoming season and suggested that I buy some Air Duct Sealant and paint the joints where the sections of air ducts fit together. That will increase the efficiency of our system, so I bought the sealant and began painting the seals since it was a chilly, rainy day outside today.


Gary and Austin were producing bushels of good work in the L/L office:

  • Did some work in the QuickBooks.

  • Did the daily social media sharing.

  • Responded to some seeker email.

  • Corresponded with Prison Ministry volunteer Azeem.

  • Continued digitizing the channeling archive, requiring one cassette tape repair job.

  • Did some more investigation of how to inventory t-shirts in-house with minimal cost and risk.

  • Finally successfully tested Skype recording for a potential future format for "In the Now." Discovered the problem was a faulty microphone jack. When the time is right, we can resume the program.

  • Finished getting familiar with another new system: the one designed for Carla's online class "Basic Principles of the Law of One". Modified some things and corresponded with tech support.

  • And speaking of tech support, spent some time on the phone with those of the tech support vibration regarding a monitor issue.

  • Worked with Manuel R. on the process of the Spanish translations and questions of the updated Book IV archetypes. This has spawned another project which shall soon commence.

  • Cut the ribbon on the new Translation Forums. (Scroll to the bottom of the page.) We designed it as a place where announcements could be made about translations, the translator could ask the community for feedback regarding the meaning of words and phrases, and perhaps even native speakers could dialogue. We're not sure if it will succeed but worth a shot, yes?

  • Wrote to each of the existing translators, or their next of kin in the event the original translator was no longer available, notifying each of the new forum and seeking their feedback.

  • Knocked out a task list of new online store "to-do's" created in the first examination of the new store - included creating a system of consistent fonts and link styles, fixing some URL's, adding new information pages, removing superfluous ones, and fixing some mistakes in product descriptions.

  • Scanned, OCRed, proofread, edited, formatted, and uploaded the missing Q'uo transcript discovered yesterday, now available in the archive: Presumably the first time it's been publicly available.

  • Signed the French-Language Licensing Contract in Louisville, adding our signatures to Jochen's and Micheline's to form a covenant of shared service. A momentous day.




We did our protocol to the Rock & Roll Station and then watched some NCIS on television. We completed our television day with a special program on axcessTV with a John Hiatt and the Goners concert. They were country/rock/folk/quirky enjoyable. I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.


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Published by Bring4th_Carla on March 24, 2015 8:12am.  Category: General



Carla and I did our Morning Offering and then got her ready for her day. Mona came by this morning and applied silver nitrate to the lower half of Carla's wound as it was pale pink whereas the top part is still beefy red. She recommended Santyl ointment for the little wound at the top of Carla's gluteal crease. She is still expecting the orthopedic surgeon's office will call with a surgery date.


I got an email from the plastic surgeon who would be in charge of closing Carla's wound after the screws are removed. He agreed with my email of last week that we should be focusing more on Carla's comfort after the surgery and not try any more skin grafts or muscle grafts that are bound to fail as the first one did because she has to lie upon the wound. He agreed to leave the wound open so we would continue our wet-to-dry dressing changes daily.


Later in the day Carla had the very clear feeling that she does not want to go through with the surgery because the whole process is more than she can handle. We'll see if that feeling persists. I think it might.


I went outside after lunch and trimmed the old lariope leaves away beside the front sidewalk so the new ones can begin growing. I also pruned back the knockout roses losing about ¾ of each plant to the cold winter.


Gary and Austin just kept on churning out the good work in the L/L office:

  • Daily social media sharing.

  • Responded to a slew of seeker email.

  • Continued the digitization of the channeling archive.

  • Visited the PO Box to retrieve mailstuffs from seekers.

  • Engaged in some moderator discussion and reflection

  • Processed PO Box mail, including some donations (thank you!) and prisoner book requests.

  • Worked with Vladislav on his volunteer effort to restore the Russian Book V to match the English original.

  • Started working on getting the Homecoming 2012 content proofread, edited, formatted, and ready for the archive site.

  • Worked with Mish and Jochen on the French contract. All parties heartily approved! Rounded up some final details and presented to Jim and Carla for their review and approval.

  • Relistened to the sections contains some small measure of personal bio material for Jim, and then a section featuring both Jim and Carla, portions transcribed last year by the inestimable Michelle H.

  • Received from Aaron T. the final section out for transcription of the interview project! Once that is relistened to, and a small section that we are going to transcribe on our own, all that text will be ready for editing and unification into a single document. Thank you, Aaron! She knocked out 21 of the 29 sections.

  • Investigated a missing transcript discovered by our friend Terry H. as he was translating the unabridged version of A Wanderer's Handbook. A quote was found with reference to a transcript missing from our site. Checking the digitized version, the audio was blank. Checking the cassette tape, the audio was blank again. It seemed this mysterious transcript had disappeared. Fortunately, Carla and Jim have hardcopy archive in house of all transcribed sessions from their original transcription, and there we found the mysterious missing transcript. Will need to restore it to the website.

  • Spent a good half of the day with the online store. Intended to commence testing it but ended up scrutinizing the text and tweaking and modifying and revising and tweaking.


We did our protocol to the Rock & Roll Station and afterwards we watched an episode of "Dancing With the Stars", and it was such fun to dance along with all the stars, to move together as one and, indeed, to become as one as we twirled and spun beyond the starry heavens and distant suns. I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.


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Published by Bring4th_Carla on March 23, 2015 8:01am.  Category: General



Carla and I did our Morning Offering and then got her ready for her day. Her wound's lower edge is continuing to be dark red with some slough here and there. We can't seem to get it looking good again. Carla's bedsores and the sore at the top of her gluteal crease continue to be very painful and very slow to yield to treatment. Her appetite was down considerably today and her sleeping was up.


I went outside after lunch and sowed 15 lbs. of grass seed in the areas on both sides of the side fish pond where I mulch the major load of leaves from the front and side yards in the fall, and the thick leaf dust seems to have killed much of the grass in those areas. Then I tilled the seed into the top inch of the soil with my garden tiller and rolled it all down with the large tires on my V-rider mower.


There was lots of nap mixed in with lots of basketball this afternoon and evening. I got to see Louisville's basketball team defeat Northern Iowa, which was a very pleasant surprise. So both Louisville and Kentucky will be in the Sweet Sixteen Round of NCAA Tournament play next weekend. There are lots of B-ball grins around the Commonwealth tonight.


We watched some NCIS in between basketball games and we did our protocol to the Louisville basketball game. It was a great game but hard to dance to. I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.


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Published by Bring4th_Carla on March 22, 2015 8:34am.  Category: General



Carla and I did our Morning Offering and then got her ready for her day. The bedsores on her behind are beginning to heal, but they are probably still more painful that her surgical wound. The little wound at the top of the gluteal crease continues to be painful as well and with no real signs of healing as yet. She continues to do her exercises daily and her appetite is fairly good.


I went outside in the late morning and cleaned out the pumps on both fish ponds and installed the ultraviolet lights in both ponds as well. At some point this summer, when the weather has been warm for quite a while, I will need to clean out both ponds.


I went out again after lunch and blew all the straggler leaves from the front, back, and side yards into one area and got out my V-rider mower and mulched them. The spring cleanup has begun!


I found a telling quote on the editorial page of the Courier Journal from Maureen Dowd, "Everybody is continuously connected to everybody else on Twitter, on Facebook, on Instagram, on Reddit, emailing, texting, faster and faster, with the flood of information jeopardizing meaning. Everybody's talking at once in a hypnotic, hyper din: the cocktail party from hell."


In the late afternoon I watched the Kentucky basketball team defeat Cincinnati and improve their record to 36-0. No one has ever started a season with that many victories, and their goal is four more and the National Championship that goes with it. It will be exciting to watch.


We ordered out dinner from the Village Anchor this evening just to celebrate the end of the week. We did our protocol to the Rock & Roll Station. We watched some NCIS episodes and then finished our viewing day with Austin City Limits where the country singer, Tim McGraw, threw in enough rock & roll licks that it was easy to get into his music, especially with him having such a melodic voice. I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.


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Published by Bring4th_Carla on March 21, 2015 8:04am.  Category: General



Happy first day of spring. I brought in the first daffodils in bloom to Carla today. It was fitting that it was also the first day of spring.


Carla and I did our Morning Offering and then got her ready for her day. In our Morning Offering readings of both the New Testament and The Man Who Walked With Jesus we have been reading about the crucifixion of Jesus and coincidentally the Lenten season is upon us as well.


Carla had an appointment with her family doctor for just after lunch today, but just before we were to get her ready for the trip she decided she was too worn out and her behind too painful to sit in her wheelchair for as long as she would have to to make the trip. So I cancelled the appointment and faxed a request to Dr. Hamad for a prescription of Xanax to help Carla deal with the nervousness that she has been feeling lately. Happily, Dr. Hamad did so.


Louisville was visited today by Prince Charles, the Prince of Wales and the oldest living Alfred E. Newman look-alike, and Camilla Parker Bowles, the Duchess of Cornwall. I think that it is hard for many to forgive him for the way he treated Princess Dianna, but I will give Prince Charles credit for championing the environment and always looking for examples of sustainability.


In the late afternoon I watched Louisville's basketball team win their first round game against the University of California, Irvine in the NCAA Tournament. Then I went outside and sprayed our daffodils and tulip with deer repellant and did a little cleanup of the tall grasses in the back yard.


I started reading to Carla from MIRACLES HAPPEN by Dr. Brian Weiss this evening. It's our ninth book to be shared in this way. In Chapter One Dr. Weiss said, "The earth is like a one-room schoolhouse in which students of different grade levels are assembled together: first graders coexist with college seniors, remedial students with the gifted. Its courses are taught in every language and cover every subject. Students of all nationalities and all races attend this school--every human does. All are on the path toward a spiritual graduation."



We did our protocol to the Classic Rock & Roll station, and then we danced a step or two to Bob Dylan's "If Not For You" and every step was light and true. I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.


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