I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The quote from 103 today comes from Chapter Two and the section on opening the heart in unconditional love:

Opening the heart in unconditional love

“So the first thing that we would suggest to those who wish to open the heart and to live in the open heart is to refrain from attempting to give the self a spiritual grade. Avoid thoughts of how you are doing. They will come regardless of whether you encourage them or not, but it is your choice if you are wise to allow those thoughts to come and go, for within the illusion that you have worked so hard to enter it is almost impossible to be aware of how one is actually serving. One must simply serve in faith and allow that faith to be sufficient.” Q’uo, January 19, 1997

Carla used to say that you can’t take your own spiritual temperature. What she meant is that there is no way that you can know how you are doing on your journey of seeking the truth since this is not the density of understanding, as Ra often said. But it is hard not to judge ourselves from time to time—especially when we have experiences that feel disharmonious. We know we want to grow spiritually, so we create some kind of a framework of acceptable and unacceptable thoughts and behaviors. So as we attempt to see how we are all things and that the Creator is within us, there is another step along the way that can aid us in realizing the Creator within us, and that is opening our hearts in unconditional love for ourselves and for everyone else. This isn’t necessarily an easy thing to do. It took me most of my life to accomplish it. In this quote Ra spoke to my situation:

59.3 Questioner: I have a question from Jim that states: “I think I have penetrated the mystery of my lifelong anger at making mistakes. I think I have always been aware subconsciously of my abilities to master new learnings, but my desire to successfully complete my mission on Earth has been energized by the Orion group into irrational and destructive anger when I fail. Could you comment on this observation?”

Ra: I am Ra. We would suggest that as this entity is aware of its position as a wanderer, it may also consider what pre-incarnative decisions it undertook to make regarding the personal, or self-oriented, portion of the choosing to be here at this particular time/space. This entity is aware, as stated, that it has great potential, but potential for what? This is the pre-incarnative question.

The work of sixth density is to unify wisdom and compassion. This entity abounds in wisdom. The compassion it is desirous of balancing has, as its antithesis, lack of compassion. In the more conscious being this expresses or manifests itself as lack of compassion for self. We feel this is the sum of suggested concepts for thought which we may offer at this time without infringement.

The way I pre-incarnatively learned compassion for myself was to do what Dr. Michael Newton described in his book, The Journey of the Soul, as “opposites programming.” I programmed lack of compassion, or anger, at myself when I made mistakes. The first reflection of this programming came when I was in the fourth grade and couldn’t hit a baseball with a baseball bat when I threw the ball into the air. So I threw the bat through the bathroom window. Throughout my life when I made mistakes like sawing a line crookedly, or bending a nail that I was driving into wood, was to break whatever tool I was using.

This process continued until I was 68 years old. On the evening of August 3, 2015, I was working on my computer just before going to bed. The power cord came out of the computer three times. The third time I got angry and whacked the back of the monitor with the power cord and broke the monitor. As I crawled into bed I was feeling very depressed and thought to myself, “What if I could accept myself right now, as I am in the pit of despair, after breaking another valuable tool?” Immediately my heart started beating rapidly, and my eyes were filled with tears. Finally, I knew that I had accepted myself, and from then on I had no anger at myself when I made mistakes, and loving other people seemed ever so much easier. It really is true that in order to really love others, you must first love yourself. And some of these kinds of lessons may take most of your life to learn.

So now, if we can digest this mind-expanding concept that we really are everything that there is in the universe, that we are truly the Creator, then we must also be perfect in our seeming imperfections. And so is everyone else. We all are the one Creator living a multitude of lives to help the Creator know Itself better, with more purity and variety. Q’uo gives some sound advice on how we may do that:

If the self cannot, or struggles, to connect with the other-selves around it due to previous incarnational experience, then it is also not fully loving the self. The purest expression of the self is that of love, is that of an open heart, first and foremost, to the self, for the self.

So, my dear seeker, these difficulties in relating in group situations or to other selves, these fears of rejection and perhaps being alone, and these actions that attempt to manipulate or control, are not aspects to shame yourself for. Judgment of self does not leave a clear path to love. No, instead, forgiving the self, being gentle with the self, treating the self like the pure and beautiful reflection of the Creator, that is the way to experiencing all that you wish to experience, to finding that comfort, to finding that peace, be that in the self and also with other selves. Q’uo, March 9, 2022

This morning I took Boscoe to the vet to get his blood sugars tested and his claws trimmed. The test results should be back by tomorrow afternoon. He has gained a full pound since last August, and that is good news.

This afternoon I went around the yard and picked up small tree limbs that were blown down in recent rain and wind. While I was walking behind my car, which was parked in the garage, I noticed that its tail lights and head lights were on, and I couldn’t get them to go off. I called the service department of Bachman Subaru and left them a message as to what I should do, and when they called back they let me know that there was a little switch just behind the steering wheel that I must have switched on when I dusted the dash board this morning. I love simple solutions!

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 17

The Eyes, Ears And Heart

I am of the principle of the love of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

You have heard many times of eyes which cannot see and of ears which do not hear. The principle of the love of Jesus the Christ moves in spirit where it is called to open the eyes, open the ears, and unstop the heart. For the world seen without the spirit of love is a world of illusion and shadow.

With all of your heart, pray that the spirit may come upon you this day, that you may gaze at the beggar and see Christ; that you may gaze at the woman in rags and see a woman in fair, clean cloth; that you may gaze at the starving child and see the most gentle and worthy of beings; that you may gaze upon your landscapes which have been so torn by war and see the peace that will swallow such degradation with love; and that you may have the eyes of Christ and the ears of Christ.

Pray and open your heart to the spirit of love. We are the way out of illusion.

We leave you in that peace that the world of illusion can never know, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.