2023-04-28

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the 102 quote comes from Chapter Two and the concept of common emotions we all experience:

Common Emotions We All Experience

Our emotions are rich opportunities for spiritual growth even when they are of a difficult nature and cause us a great deal of traumatic catalyst as we experience them. At some point in our lives we all experience emotions like heartbreak, the loss of a loved one, betrayal, abuse, and self-doubt and they can bring us a great deal of suffering and difficulty. In 34.6, Ra gave us the general principle of how we may deal with such difficult emotions:

Questioner: Thank you. Can you give me examples of catalytic action to produce learning under each of the following headings from the last session we had… Can you give me an example of the self unmanifested producing learning catalyst?

Ra: I am Ra. We observed your interest in the catalyst of pain. This experience is most common among your entities. The pain may be of the physical complex. More often it is of the mental and emotional complex. In some few cases the pain is spiritual in complex-nature. This creates a potential for learning. The lessons to be learned vary. Almost always these lessons include patience, tolerance, and the ability for the light touch.

Very often the catalyst for emotional pain, whether it be the death of the physical complex of one other-self which is loved or some other seeming loss, will simply result in the opposite, in a bitterness, an impatience, a souring. This is catalyst which has gone awry. In these cases, then, there will be additional catalyst provided to offer the unmanifested self further opportunities for discovering the self as all-sufficient Creator containing all that there is and full of joy.

But it is usually not so easy to be able to see the overview that Ra speaks of when we deal with emotions such as heartbreak, loss of a loved one, or a broken marriage, either for ourselves or for one whom we love. In this case Q’uo had some good advice for dealing with these types of heartbreak:

Therefore, my friends, concentrate upon simple goals, upon attaining some fair portion closer and closer to fifty percent of your thoughts and actions which are kind or intended to be loving or intended to [be] joyful. You do this in the face of a world in which the illusion exposes you to many unfortunate and irreconcilable disappointments. If all things are well with you, then it is a friend of a loved one who is struggling. You gaze at one with who has come face to face with the traumas of broken marriage or advanced and debilitating old age or the loss of a mate or a child or some other heartbreak, and there is nothing that you can say that will make the one who grieves comforted because the illusion causes many conditions to appear utterly disconsolate. But if you go back to meditation, if you return to that portion of yourself which is silent and holy, you find gifts there heaped upon one another which answer the illusion but which you cannot explain.

Now, this is unfortunate, seemingly. You find gifts within you, and yet you cannot explain them. How, then, can you help others? You find your joy, you find love, you find the source of unity within you that binds all things as one. You find that comfort which faces death, disappointment and heartbreak, and says that every tear shall be dry. “This I know,” and you cannot communicate it. What then shall you do? My friends, you shall be instruments. You shall desire first in meditation for yourself to know the free-flowing beauty of love, the infinite and merciful kindness of creative compassion, the utterly simple faith that beneath all appearances lies a consciousness that is one with you and with the universe which precludes judgment. These things shall you find, and you shall not cease in your seeking until you have found these gifts, for they are your birthright. Do not be satisfied with less. Open that door of silence and ask, for the asking is irresistible, and then in the fullness of the answer let the flow begin and become you as much and as often as you are capable of functioning in this manner. Q’uo, April 25, 1993.

Though Q’uo suggested that our choice of service to others could be helpful to another who is suffering heartbreak for any of a myriad of reasons, their suggestion that we return to meditation and seek the inner gifts of joy, love, and unity we can also rely on these gifts to help us begin to resolve any heartbreak that we may feel. When we share this process with others it is a type of spiritual counseling which we may offer in our meditations and in conversations with our friends and loved ones who have suffered a heartbreaking situation. Sometimes just listening to a person describe their traumatic situation is very helpful because it is always good to know that someone else cares about us when we are undergoing such difficulties. Just being able to talk about them begins a road that can eventually lead to a healing of the heartbreak.

The difficult emotions that come from abuse may also be used for spiritual growth according to pre-incarnative choices—as may all kinds of emotional distress such as heartbreak, to loss of a loved one, and betrayal. In the following quote Q’uo speaks specifically to the concept of abuse:

However early in life these abuses begin to occur, they leave a mark. And while a scar is only that which is upon the surface, there are scars that go much deeper than physical scars. Healing from such memories—even unconscious memories of abuse—is greatly facilitated by the ability to talk through such experiences, such half-hidden memories as each may have, so that each can support each, each can comfort each, and each can forgive each. For there is a guilt implicit in the shutting off of human companionship even though it is necessary for the experience of safety to be had. And this crux, this time, for the ones known as A and B, is a time for such examination, such discussion, and such healing. The one known as A asked if this indeed had been a situation planned by his higher self, by the guidance system that was co-planner of this incarnation with the one known as A before incarnation, and we may confirm this. It is not that the situation was set up in order that the one known as A and the one known as B may learn thus and so; rather, it was set up so that the one known as A and the one known as B may learn—and teach each other as they learn from each other. We may say that this is a situation in which both come to the relationship untrammeled by previous karma. There is balanced karma within this relationship. Each is completely free to love and serve the other without regard for previous lessons, previous incarnations, or previous hopes and fears. You may come to the situation knowing that you are fresh and new and hopeful with each other. Q’uo, October 10, 2004.

As Ra said at various times, “There are no mistakes.” We all have come here to learn certain lessons that we have programmed in a manner which may seem very traumatic to experience, but the very nature of dealing with trauma can imbed the lessons more deeply into our being and thusly enhance our spiritual journeys. However, it is well to remember that using the balancing exercises to deal with each type of difficult emotion is the most effective means of learning these lessons.

Such is also true of the concept of self-doubt. Q’uo shared some valuable information on how we can deal with self-doubt when they said:

We would encourage you to lift away from self-judgment at times that you feel you have made an error. It is well to observe errors in yourself when they occur. That is how one learns, by making mistakes. As entities become more and more spiritually mature, they find delight in using the fruits of their self-knowledge of the past, and so the heavy burden of self-doubt and a feeling of low self-worth is a little bit easier to dissolve. Yet always there is a disappointment that strikes a seeker when he realizes that he has made an error. He cannot go back and fix it. He simply must begin again and hope to remember the graceful way, the loving way, the compassionate way to handle catalyst of this kind when it comes around again, as it most surely will.

Self-criticism and self-judgment are powerful sources of blockage. There is within many seekers the desire to make a difference in the world, to help others and serve good causes. Yet, in that same general run of seekers there is often a prejudice against working on the self, for it seems selfish to be absorbed in the processes of the self. It is our opinion that it is in healing yourself that you heal the world. It is in learning to love yourself that you learn to love others. It is in finding compassion at last for yourself that you are finally able to have compassion on others. It is in blessing your own suffering by respecting it, honoring it, and forgiving it in yourself that you become able to behold the suffering of the world in its massive and almost infinite depth. Q’uo, November 24, 2007.

Q’uo suggested that it is important for each of us to realize that we will make mistakes from time to time. We are all human, or as Carla used to say, “We are all bozos on this bus.” So it would be helpful if we could learn to accept ourselves and love ourselves and realize that as conscientious seekers of truth we are always doing our best to be of service to others, but sometimes we will occasionally make mistakes. In 96.4, Ra suggested it is our intentions that are the important factor in our attempts to be of service when they described how we were hoping to clean our new home in Georgia:

May we note that just as each entity strives in each moment to become more nearly one with the Creator but falls short, just so is physical spotlessness striven for but not achieved. In each case the purity of intention and thoroughness of manifestation are appreciated. The variance between the attempt and the goal is never noted and may be considered unimportant.

Dealing with difficult emotions of all kinds and being willing to face ourselves as clearly as possible in each situation is part of the spiritual path of the Player on the Enhanced Gameboard of Life.

This morning I made an errand run with my first stop being at Thieneman’s Nursery to buy some more flowers. My second and last stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy more food for myself. When I got back home I vacuumed the first floor of the house.

This afternoon I went outside and used my chain saw to cut down the weigelia tree next to the fish pond that died over the winter. It had about a dozen stalks coming out of the ground that were about 30-40 feet long and some of them were leaning towards the fence that surrounds my perennial giant hibiscus garden. That meant that I had to make a cut most of the way through them that would take them in another direction when I pushed them that way. Fortunately the stalks were only three or four inches in diameter, so it was fairly easy to push them away from the fence around the giant hibiscus garden. Now I just have to cut them all up in lengths of about four feet so I can put them in garbage cans for yard waste pickup next week.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 28

Praise And Thanksgiving In Your Heart

I am of the spirit of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

Take this moment to become more and more in touch with that feeling of praise and thanksgiving that is in your heart this day. The trees praise the Lord. The hills and valleys rejoice. And the burgeoning flowers move through the earth to the sun in bursts of pleasure and chanting of happiness to the winds.

It may seem that there are obstacles to your joy and that the world is not one which you would praise. Yet gaze you at your own hands and at the mind of the Father which created such tools.

Gaze at the incessantly changing colors of your thoughts and behold the beauty of the creation of the Father.

Look at those who have served you and those whom you have served, those who have displeased you and those whom you have displeased, and praise the Father Who gives you freedom to make your own decisions about His creation; Who urges you to pick and choose, to think and select and grow.

The more your heart may stand in the light of faith, praising and giving thanksgiving, the more yet again shall the spirit find this opportunity to be granted unto you in happy harvest.

The first word of praise in any day is an act of blind faith and brings the heart into peaceful concert with the harmonious plan of the Father.

May you choose to dwell in that peace, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.