I just wanted to share a little story on some "wandering" i did today. I've felt like i've done lots of spiritual progress lately (finally got the meditation right and found out a bit about my previous incarnation) and understood a whole deal about how it all works, how you define your reality by first showing intention for what you wish and then simply "letting go". I wanted to see how well my intentions and manifestations work, and put some of my new found truths of life into practical use.
So, me and a friend (who lives in another city) were supposed to go meet another friend in a town about 400 miles from where i live. At first we were supposed to go by car, but we couldn't use that car, so we said we'd go by train. He took the train from his city and i said i was either going to take the train or find a ride. In a meditation session i came to the conclusion that i was supposed to try to walk there and let faith take care of the rest, i was going to be offered a ride by someone on the way there. So today i started walking. I was so happy and spreading light all around, talking to strangers on my way and smiling at all the people in cars passing me by. However, i couldn't use the freeway that would have taken me in the correct direction so i felt i would walk along a path that was meant for pedestrians and bicyclists which was a separate "road" paralel to the highway about 2-5 metres from the road.
As i was walking i came to many conclusions and revelations with my right side of the brain (lately i've felt like i've started "feeling" the difference, if one could describe it that way), while the left one was trying to get logical and give up and look at a map or take a train or something. But my faith in getting where i was supposed to was far greater. One of my "revelations" was this:
I remembered seeing a woman walking with a huge backpack, a gymbag AND a skibag as i was walking home with my girlfriend two days before this. I said to my girlfriend that it was a shame that we were only 20 metres from the door to our house (an apartment building) while she was walking behind us, because otherwise i would have offered my help with all those bags. As we opened the door and went inside, we noticed that she had the same destination as us, so i helped her with the door, told her that i would've helped her with the bags if i knew she was going to the same place and gave her the elevator and said we'd take the stairs, she was a very kind and thankful person. I applied this to my wandering, as people driving by would have stopped and helped me if they knew where i was going, but since i was not on the highway (and had no idea where i was going), they thought i was fine with my packing (a huge airmatress on my back (which wasn't even for me!) and a heavy suitcase). I didn't feel like asking for help, i wanted to see if the universe would help out without me asking others for help, only by keeping my light shining and my vibrations high.
So i kept on walking for 4 hours and really enjoying it. Moments of small doubt but mostly positive thoughts and keeping the brain chatter down. I reached a small town and didn't know how to proceed from here, since i had only 4 hours left before midnight (when i intended to arrive), couldn't get to the freeway and had only walked about 15 miles. It was also getting dark. I then saw a sign that said "guidance" so i thought, yes i would very much like that. I followed it, sat down on a bus stop bench and thought about the situation for a while. At first i thought about getting a taxi or calling someone, felt a little lost. I tried putting the airmatress on my back again but the carrying strap broke. I then thought, "i'll sit here and enjoy this moment and a solution will present itself". A bus pulled up which went to where i live, but i thought "naah, money is always a temporary solution but not what i want to use, another one will present itself". When it drove away i noticed a girl that had been behind it whose car was stuck in the snow. She was unable to get away so i walked across the street and offered my help. It was really stuck so it took a few minutes but we finally got it out, and i asked her if she was headed in the direction i was headed in, and sadly she was not. She was going to where i live, so i thanked her and went along back to where i live since i felt this was right. As i came to my front door, the same woman that i saw two days earlier was leaving with all of her bags again (she was only visiting). I said "hi again!", had a little conversation and kept the door open for her as she came out, and she kept it open for me as i went inside. She was checking that i came inside safely and then said "maybe you'll make it on your own now!". She meant it in another way but i took these words very close to my heart.
Even though i didn't make it to the other town tonight, i felt blessed for the lesson i learnt. Before this i knew that only when you place all of your faith in that things will turn out fine, they will. Putting it into use in the physical world was a blessing though, i started feeling so much more alive. I'm a bit lazy though, so tomorrow morning i'll go by train,
but i feel so thankful for being in this experience and getting to learn all these lost parts of myself.
Another thing i would like to mention that i believe i understood the last few days is the 11:11 phenomena and all of the "signs" that life tries to show you (like a car i saw today with the license LYS-123, which is swedish and means SHINE-123). I used to think that they always mean something specific, something shall we say almost "tangible" and definable. What i think now though, is that it is supposed to mean exactly what you think it means. What it means to you. That is what all of life's lessons are about.
Love & Light to you all!
.. So I do the best I can at the moment at hand and Love as much as I am able to do so.