(08-12-2015, 04:00 PM)Cainite Wrote: [ -> ]oh god I'm so confused.. I may read sth and the second time I read it I realize that I had gotten it wrong.. sometimes the reverse of what is actually told.
my heart is acting weird too... it used to beat slow. now it's been racing for a while and it has become exhausted
Jade, you have great insight.. as a child I was mostly just abandoned by family and mistreated by others, left alone, and always one against many. friends often teamed up against me and I had to defeat them all by myself.
I'm very curious about chakras and energies
I will read what you guys posted here and other threads again and again..
thank you
I don't know if you're still around the forums. I'm sorry for your experiences.
I had my chakras system open up to Indigo Ray during my time performing Work in Consciousness, I wasn't really doing it to channel, it was just to see if it was all real, the Ra Material. And when it was, I used that to understand. I however did not maintain the proper mental discipline aaaaand with a wide open indigo ray began inviting the darker aspects to show themselves. And I wandered into Hell, kind of like the room in the movie 1408 style, where he 'gets out' of the room but it turns out it's all an illusion and he never left.
Same thing, only with real life, time/space is hell, and space/time is the illusion. That isn't how things are, but at the time it was a pretty powerful illusion. Made me shut down good. Looking back, I now kind of comprehend why I was losing my mind, and why I felt such fears as actually becoming schizophrenic, losing control of my thoughts permanently, and such. I can't imagine what you're going through, it honestly sounds worse than what I experienced...
A powerful wanderer more than likely, who's taken a particularly powerful life path of catalyst maybe. That you made it here tells me you may very well be...
You asked for information on the Chakras, I'll outline them for you as far as I understand them from the Ra Material.
Red Ray: Pertains to your stance on living on Earth and your Sexuality, if you aren't okay with being on Earth, it's a blockage, if you're not honest about your sexuality, it's a blockage. (I would not pin homosexuality as negative, Ra even says it can still be a positive orientation if the act is out of love and not for sexual pleasure.)
As far as keeping red ray open is concerned, if you can just come to accept you are on Earth here and now, and intend to stay and not depart by self-methods, you should be mostly fine, even if you're not entirely happy on Earth, as long as you accept you're here for the time being is probably minimally balanced enough. Accepting your sexuality can be tricky too. Mine was personally, I finally realized my orientation is Love based. Some would call that Pansexual perhaps, I just prefer to say my sexuality is Love. Blocked Red Ray does not mean a closed red ray, if anything the blockage begins at the midway to orange ray, and is an indication simply that you need to allow yourself more personal love/acceptance/forgiveness from the green ray, specifically the Lower Courtyard.
Orange Ray: Personal Responsibility Chakra, and the Power Chakra. This Chakra pertains to how you handle yourself, when in regards to self, and others, as such the Orange Ray is not as firm but more free-flowing in energy configuration as it has two polarized sides to it's needing to be balanced. I call it the Personal Responsibility Ray because it is where your Power of Choice is considered. Do you go against your own words, desires, needs? Do you do the same towards others? Going against their words and desires and needs? It's okay to not always do whatever is told of you, a part of personal responsibility is saying no and standing up for yourself. Visit this ray from the Lower Courtyard of the Green Ray and consider how you felt with your actions towards others, how you felt with your reactions towards others actions towards you. This ray is best unblocked by living the mantra, Do unto others as you would have upon yourself. If you think you'd say no to a situation, and think they too would, then it's probably best to stand up for yourself and say no, you don't need to let people walk all over you, hence it's also the Personal Power Ray. This Ray can however block the Green Ray if you use it to try to make another possess you or to try and possess another (make them yours or you theirs against their will), and in fact can block the green ray if you simply desire to possess or be possessed, visit those feelings from the Lower Courtyard as, in my personal experience, they are hard to alleviate alone.
Of course, if you are alone and desire that, it may be that much harder, it's where you need to have Indigo Ray belief and trust in your self's future. To deny that trust is to maintain a consistent manifestation of your doubts.
Yellow Ray: The Construct Ray, or Social Ray. I call it the Construct Ray because it is oriented around your position in Structures of Society and Nature while being the Manifested-Activated Ray which creates the structure of your human body on this Earth plane. Your placement as Human. Your relationship with others who you deem friends or acquaintances, and potentially any one else who is also human. Your relationship with blood and legal related family. Your relationship with work. Your legal standing and social standing. Pertains to honor/duty's regarding perhaps agreements legally you've made and honor's (promises) you've given or taken up to others.
Ra says it straight, the best way to completely balance this ray is to Love and desire well-being for all who you come into contact with. It doesn't need to be 100% everyone, but at least as many as you consciously personally can without forcing yourself to. It's about minimal balance, you're not trying to get 100%, just enough to be healthy! Which depends for everyone, you should experiment to see how much is just right for you. Everyone you know, treat them as you would like to be treated, and hope for their well being, if you won't desire it. Visiting this ray from the Lower Courtyard can be...Hard sometimes. A lot of honesty with self is needed to ascertain what parts of your Social Life must be accepted and what parts are things you must change, and what parts are things you must change in the future, but accept right now in this Moment.
Green Ray: Love Ray
Love Unconditionally, simple as that. To Love Unconditionally goes in two ways, but should be viewed as a linear progression of action. Step One, Love thy self. Step Two, Love thy other-self.
How to Love? It's different for everyone, but you must typically come to learn yourself, then accept all those things about yourself. Ra calls this the Shadow Self, in the Courtyard of the Green Ray exists the Shadow Self, all those aspects of yourself you have pushed away, kept hidden, rejected, neglected, ignored and denied. They are consciously rejected things, socially learned rejected things, and unconsciously rejected things. You will not meet them all and immediately accept them, some of them you may even fight mentally, other aspects might ignore you, some may argue, others will want nothing to do with you, and others may relish in relief that you finally noticed them. All those pieces of you ARE YOU, and when you can accept that this shadow self is you potentially, is when you can begin to feel confident that you are learning to love yourself. When you can enjoy who you are, and accept the dark parts (maybe not enjoy them all...) and forgive yourself, have mercy upon yourself, and love and accept yourself for who you are, darkness and all, you may very well be capable of beginning to try and unconditionally love yourself, and through yourself, begin to unconditionally love others. Upon doing this you have entered into a state of being Openhearted, sort of like being openminded or intellectually open, but now you are emotionally and consciously open, not just intellectually. Results may vary, if you at that time associate as desiring to be of Service to Others, you can begin the act of Polarization, full-spectrum Ray Balancing, Work in Consciousness, and in possibly more so long as you understand that you must care for yourself, and have the personal power to say no when you truly must say no. Then the capacity to forgive yourself for failing others at times. For you are but mortal, you cannot please everyone all the time, and sometimes you aren't even when you try, for you too are a part of everyone.
Blue Ray: Self Honesty and Honesty to Others. Co-creator Ray. The best way to unblock this Chakra? Be honest with yourself, but seriously, also be gentle with yourself, and be considerate of others, you are speaking your Truth, not THE truth. Be honest about yourself, if you're scared, be honest and say you're a shy type, just don't blatantly lie and you'll be fine. I make a personal exception of making small white lies to gently pull someone into a...Big bit of information, sometimes people prefer illusion to truth. Oh, other good part, this Ray is technically not really blocked energetically, only in terms of being balanced. It can be unbalanced and still transmit Light through the chakra system if the Green Ray is activated and open, as the Blue Ray automatically activates with the Green Ray becoming open. There's much more metaphysical and Work in Consciousness related aspects of this Chakra that at this time probably aren't necessary to expand upon.
Indigo Ray: Manifestation Ray. This is where your trust and belief in self must stem from, if you have no confidence in your self you have an Indigo Ray blockage, opening up this Ray is the final key to making your Chakra system clear and open to the full love and light of Intelligent Infinity and to become a conduit of Intelligent Energy. This Ray is essentially the Manifestation Ray, in that if you do not believe in your capabilities or self, you may sabotage yourself, or continually keep yourself down. This Ray is in my opinion, personal for everyone, for we all affect our selves in various differing ways. Your Indigo Ray requires a set manner of ways of thinking, that may very well be very much different from my Indigo Ray's required set manner of ways of thinking, or 'Mental Configuration'. As an effective Third Eye to see and experience higher and lower realities, if you cannot focus your Mental Configuration while keeping an open Indigo Ray you will...Or may not enjoy the final outcome when your thoughts return to the misery and perceived horrors of 3rd Density life on Earth and begins seeing the inner deeper worlds of those areas of Earth's consciousness... Essentially, if you can control your thoughts and keep them positively oriented, you should be just fine in any viewing you perform with your third eye.
Violet Ray: I honestly cannot say for this one, it protects you, it links you to the One Infinite Creator, it is your total self linked inextricably to you because of the nature of vibratory space overlapping the same area (essentially your higher self and you are at this moment in the exact same 'space' vibration-arily, but not in terms of the frequency of that space. Imagine your soul overlaps your physical body but on a different plane that is still connected to the space your body occupies, is..does this make any sense at all?). The Violet Ray is what Ra utilized to initiate a 'narrow-band' communication, they explain the mechanics of that in the Ra Material a bit I believe. Beyond this though, I do not know for certain the various capabilities of the Violet Ray, as they are all apparently covered by the Law of Confusion/Free Will and I guess must be...Discovered personally perhaps?
I don't know.
I hope this helps you at all, please be safe and careful...