My worldview is actually not so bad, my lifeview is hellish but that's on me since I care way too much about everyone suffering around me.
Worldwide? Not just hell, but heavenly too which dips into my lifeview. But beyond these things, I'm generally content with existence, albeit also sick of it. Hence I love/hate everything about this place, thats the best I got to offer an otherwise immoral universe. I'm giving what I get.
Gonna see how the Universe likes it then maybe make a cosmic case for cosmic suicide if this is how its naturally run. If its not, I'll probably lay down a case for the cosmos...to reconsider 3D design.
Though I'm also starting to see that Reality is of itself different/similar for everyone just like the Laws of Physics vary from Solar System to Solar System.
So when you use words like inertia, it tickles me because that's a fear generating word of itself if you dislike 3D and understand the Ra Material enough to know its like the cell to 3D prison/education systems and that makes Forgiveness the key.
So I accept and forgive but continue to worry about the infinite endless souls coming here to be.
Well, lets not beat around the Bush. I'm only looking at some of the darker horrors of this place. I cite The Holocaust as only one smaller horror to our History's collective. I cite things like Fukushima's grossly disgusting manner of being handled.
I worry for those to come and those who already were so violently twisted by this place they lost themselves. Consider my caring and hatred for the universe by products of empathy. I can feel people.
I don't feel anything from the cosmos, thats similar to how I don't feel indifferent people in my mind, A. B, I can debunk a caring universe for a methodic one. C, that means I need to find my own way.
But otherwise, Humanity is coming along and that makes me feel fuzzy and happy inside but then I remember my Pacific Ocean, and ALL MY BEACHES, MY BEACHES NUUUUUU
are also dead. Half the world is still drying up for profit. And I'm not going to put on my happy glitter sparkles and look at that f***** mess and love it. Loving radiation won't fix it any different than loving a real demon is a good way to get hurt if its a mean kind and not a nice kind.
My post was for people who lose their minds from the Ra Material. I see some switch polarity in haste and confusion as they go through psychotic states of mind, so I thought the words were needed...
I was obviously wrong, but I don't feel misery from myself Jeremy, I feel sadness for others, for their sorrow and pain. Thank you for the aid, I'll try it out but I'm otherwise just familiar with darkness in a non...chaotic way, but more shining light on darkness then accepting the infinite dreadful black bleakness of it so it'll see that of itself its not dreadful or bleak, just illusions of suffering.
I don't suffer much. I'm comfortably numb to the suffering.
Not by loneliness though. I'll always suffer from that, its the only suffering I need to feel sadness. It doesn't make my hell though, how I handle it does.
But as I said. I'm doing it for a reason. I'm unhappy with the perceived design I'm seeing, Universe doesn't seem to care so I'm letting it feel its self.
I'm like a mirror in a mirror mirroring the mirror back to itself.
Cause I'm weird like that but it works. Catalyst has slowed, I'm able to make a choice without having 5 seconds to do so. I choose to be mean sometimes to mean people, doesn't make anything better. That's my point.
The Universe teaches with painful catalyst. Causes pain which causes more pain. Suffering is typically 'enjoyed' during this time too.
Seems backwards and I'm making it known personally. I do not accept such skewed catalyst. If it comes, I ignore it profusely then erupt in fury at it to silence the pain (works great for my stupid stomach aches daily). Typically, now such doesn't happen because I spit at the Universe in fury at its own indifference but movement towards me.
Then I love it as it comes back (or by myself feel infinite levels of dissatisfaction with hellish life), rinse and repeat.
I bargain with the universe. I do not identify as JUST a soul but a highly abused species, called Human. And this ego or whatever people call it loves me, because I listened instead of silencing it for love. There is suffering.
I don't ignore it. I think that's cruel. I look at it, and my eyes water but I don't look away except to wipe my eyes. Humanity, if it had a say as a collective individual.
Do you think Humanity would forgive the universe for spawning them then using them so absently?
I think under conditions, yes. Otherwise, no. Just no. You don't piss and s*** on a species' being then turn around and act higher teaching them to forgive and love themselves and the entities who made them that way! That's akin to a Christian God, and much offense to Yahweh, but I'm pretty sure a lot of people would reject aliens of the sort the same way they reject God.
So. I get it. I like it. Not falling for it. See the good in it. And bad. Stepped back said screw the left and the right. They are the exact same thing.
I know it messes with people. How do you think I feel being this way? I'm completely alone. Completely. I don't Think anyone would understand me even If I explained myself lol...
But I love. I hate, but I hate suffering and cruelty and severe pain. I love kindness, caring, consideration, empathy, life... I love a lot more than I hate, but this place. Its had much suffering and madness poured into it.
I'll be a sponge. I'm not doing anything else
And in time it all becomes lighter in me. I can look at rape vs I couldn't before. Darkness isn't what I wanted to deal with but its here. Can't just notice it then be like lolkay-notMyJobLOL.
...-checks my store-
I can't believe I typed all this uninterrupted. Yay small miracles!
I'm broody and dark right now. But I promise I am listening and considering.
I just want people to stop looking away from darkness. If we all did something about it together. . .
But I'm only One. And One despite being composed of Many, is still just One compared to many. One atom doesn't change the entire Universe. Many of that One atom do.
My life is a waiting game for those around me to awaken.
My only true fear in life anymore, is that they never will.
Nowheretoday, I think you're handling it all much better than I
Diana, your term I once called the Upward Spiral Effect. See Happiness, grab on (you say hook in) and enjoy it, find more happiness while happy, creates the USE occurrence. Upward Spiral Effect occurrence.
Its like depression inversed.